Somebody is not cut for marching
You may ask what's so great about EHANG 184.
There is nothing to brag about. The West
were already having a passenger flying drone
and a man carrying hover board. I couldn't
agree more. The United States
having a more powerful light flying machine
with perpetual battery life from Bloom
I cannot assess the power of EHANG as I have
not seen any passenger in the drone yet, not even
during the test flight. One of the problems
of drone is the load it can carry. As for
the battery life EHANG can cooperate with
Bloom. The combination of Indian-Chinese
technology could be very interesting.
Let me assume EHANG 184 could take a heavy
load, the different between the West and the
Chinese is the former keeps them secret and
to deploy the machine for military operation
but the Chinese is using the
machine for commercial purpose. The Dubai
Taxi is an astonishing concept.
I think the Chinese is too excited. So were
the other inventors. I think the Chinese
should first operate their own drone taxis
to attract more tourists to China and open
up technology park identical to Epcot Center
Who among us do bother about
numbers, count and time ? I talked
about this before in my blog. Only
several days ago we talked about it
again when a friend of mine
mentioned about time. Recklessly I
said that without numbers there
would have been no time. Time
actually exist even before mankind
came into being. You would surely
agree to his point.
And I said that before there were
numbers and the knowledge on
counting, did they use time ? A
person was as old as a hill or a
coconut tree. When you look at the
hill or coconut tree you still
cannot conceive his age. But people
were aware of the changing moment,
human growth, the past, now and
afterwards by the changing of sun's
I do not know the history of counts
and who were using the base of 10,
6, 8 or any others. With base 10
they started to measure time, adding
up the moments and came up with a
measurement for moments; day, days,
week month, year, seconds, minutes
and hours. Time has taken into a
clear and visible shape.
But numbers did not end there.
People found that God created them
for men to discover and to
manipulate. It contains mysteries,
much still unknown to men. It can
make ships float, planes fly,
buildings reaching the skies,
technology to progress. The Chinese
probably had discovered some
combination of numbers possess
strong energy that bring luck. We
are not to dispel with such a
belief, for even Nikolai Tesler
chose a certain number for his room,
3327. 8888 is a lucky number to the
Chinese. 13 is regarded as weird.
Tradition, old writers and shamans
were fond of describing happenings
or events of 3 days and three nights
and three months or 7 days, 7 nights
and 7 years. The Christians computed
666 as the date of the arrival of
anti-Christ. The Muslims are talking
about 7 layers of heavenly sky. In
some religions gods are having 3
heads and 7 hands.
Numbers facilitate the making of
money of different values, house
addresses, contact and personal IDs
and the choice of who should be our
leader. They give life to the world
and make it more glittering and
A big number does not necessarily
depicts strength. The growing number
could be inversely proportional to
their values. We used to see this in
Indonesian Rupiah, millions here and
there with lower purchasing power,
and seeping into our country. We use
to pay RM4 for an item and now it is
RM8. We used to get 10 Thai Baht
with 80 cents and now we have to pay
RM1.20 for it. What is a hundred
rinngit today in a super store ?
People tend to coerce for higher
salary thinking they could become
richer, not knowing it could bring
disaster to themselves and the
jobless and the poor people.
What other numbers are in existence,
other than the binary and
hexadecimal ? I don't know. I would
guess that you may have heard both
hex and binaries. But how about REAL
numbers ? Rational and irrational
numbers ? Aren't they relevant ?
If you take them seriously, study
and utilize them carefully, I am
sure you can build a more secured
future for you. You will understand
more what lavish and thrift means.
You will begin to appreciate the
beauty of the earth with the
interplay and blending of
mathematical formula that are unseen
and unknown to us. Most of us are
ignorant.. I have been ignorant for
almost my whole life, about many
things including on numbers and it's
Tomorrow you go to JPJ and book for
a plate number 8888 and see what
will be outcome.
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
OR DONATION ?
are soft, pitiful and kind. When we see
postings showing unfortunate children whose
parents had been killed in car accidences
or in war appealing for donations we quickly
jump in to help the kids. We formed group to
share the financial burden incurred among
us, and banked in the money to the said
account. To you a good deed has been done
and you feel you have done your duty to God.
What you may
not know is whatever happen to the money you
banked in. As it had recently happened in
this country a couple was killed by car
accidence living a couple of young children.
Their uncle published the appeal in the
social media for donation. Cash began to
pour in by the thousands, totaling up to a
few hundred thousands. Seeing the huge sum
the uncle and his wife quit their job. They
claimed that money was legally theirs
because the account was under their name.
I learned something else during my trip to
Israel recently, to discover that there are
many wealthy Palestinians in the occupied
land. They own shops and run several kind of
businesses. I have had thought they are
living under the refugee tents without food
to eat and no dress to don. I murmured to my
friend about not seeing the poverty scene as
I had expected, and people in deplorable
condition. He said it was on the other side
of the West Bank and the area was a
forbidden place for tourists.
Even then the
Muslims in Haifa or Tel Aviv do not die of
hunger, or begged for a living. But one has
to have a skill and has to work hard to
live. There might be joblessness as we are
having right here right now.
picture of the the donation boxes in Mamak
shops and post offices came to my mind.
Where do these money actually go ? I began
to think people capitalized the good hearts
of the Malaysian to build their own wealth.
If Saudi Arabia could donate 2.8 billion to
Najib, why can't she donate the sum to the
Palestinians for the uplifting of their well
giving donation I would prefer the outright
adoption. Do you think it is easy to adopt
an orphan from Syria or Palestine ? Or adopt
the child who seek for donation ?
It will cost
you a fortune and you have to be as good as
a millionaire. The custodians are making
fortune out the kids.
poverty in a war stricken countries do
exist. There were people driven from their
homes like the Rohingya. MERCY is the
voluntary group that had been doing a lot of
good work. We expect our government to help
and we can donate through the government not
by banking in into the personal account of a
I am not
telling you not to donate. It is your money.
Neither do I am telling you not to be
foolish, nor inciting rebellion against the
good work. I merely jot it down in my memory
through this writing.
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
One out of
fifty motorcyclists may heed the traffic
light. The rest simply ignore traffic rules.
May they be male or female. They rush the
read light even with the oncoming cars,
tearing their throttles like on the racing
tracks. And one out of twenty cars sees red
as green, including ladies with hijab and
Hajis. It would not be so bad to drive
against your way, running the red light and
ignoring No-Entry sign at 2.30 am when the
people are asleep and roads are empty. They
can knock the lamp post if they like and
swim on the road. There doesn't seem to have
a policeman at this hour. It is unlike the
United States for instant where the police
will be after you at the unexpected hours,
popping up like a ghost staring at the
drivers and riders parade their acrobatic
skill during the rush hour or at any time of
the day when there are traffics are on the
On the other
hand there are extremely careful drivers.
Many a time I have been following a car at
the speed of 30 km per hour. At a junction
they will wait until the road is completely
clear before crossing. In the United States
cars driven by elderly persons have ping
pong ball at the top of the a kind of a car
antenna where you can see from the distance
and some have ribbons beneath the ball. They
would drive about 25 to 30 mph. Slow drivers
in Malaysia were found to be using hand
phones while driving. And they drive at the
center of the road too.
In the dark
night, there are cars and motorbikes without
light on roads without street light, black
in color whooshing pass you in great speed,
causing your heartbeats to accelerate. There
will a thousand and one questions prod into
your mind. The Chinese used the favorite
phrase 'nang pu ti nang, kui pu ti kui' ( to
say a man not a man, to say a ghost,
not a ghost)
places in USA when youth are renting cars
they made personal insurance mandatory. The
cost vary according to age. The charge is
getting cheaper as you are getting older. It
means that the older you are the lesser is
the insurance charge. Accidence occurs more
among the younger people. It is based on the
statistical data and report. Unlike here
decisions are made by the sentiments rather
than the actual facts.
judge characters by the drivers attitudes.
Between a man on a motorbike who stopped red
light at 2 am and a man who ignores it at
the rush hour, I would choose the former as
a friend though he may be labeled as a dumb.
A drivers' attitude will be carried in him
wherever he goes. It has been embedded in
his blood. It is all about honesty,
trustworthy and considerate.
may not hold water. Laws were broken may be
due to accidental. But they can also be
deliberate. There are people who were absent
minded when behind the wheel only at a
certain time dreaming or thinking of
something else. He may even forget where he
wants to go and does not know where he is.
It is pity. Things can happen to anybody.
only my opinion. Opinion can be untrue.
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
I count my
money again to see how much I have left in
my purse, whether it will last me till the
date of my pension. This month it will be on
February 21st. I have three meals a day.
Last night I was defeated by my lust to go
for a crab which is an expensive item these
days. The crab alone was RM26.50 a piece. I
figured I can survive till the 21st.
Majeed tomato rice I have been frequenting
Man Roti Jala for my breakfast. It is
cheaper than Majeed. The nasi lemak
is exceptionally delicious and as low as
RM3, taking with fish and a half egg. At
night I have my dinner,
rice with fish and egg at a Mamak stall. It
cost me RM5, also very tasty. My lunch has
always been expensive, at the average of RM8
I have RM150
left. I thought it is enough even for the
cat food. I bought three packets of cat
food, paying RM48 for them. Both the cats
and my stomach are well taken care off. I
also have settled all my monthly bills. With
simple living I don't have to be a
millionaire. The problem with me is that
when there are plenty of notes in my purse I
tend to be prodigal. My good point is I
don't buy anything new if I still have the
old usable gadgets. My laptops are the old 32
bit machines using Windows XP, one with
screen almost flung from the main body. I
still use it to write codes and in the
making of button badge and the key chains. I
have a Samsung and an Asus phone. My old
Apple laptop which is infested with numerous tiny
ants and dysfunctional keyboard is still
running with an external keys.
I save here
and spend there. That's the art of enjoying
the survival. But it does not mean that I
want to live forever. I even think of going
somewhere where I could live alone, a
peaceful sanctuary with absolute
tranquility and to die there; at a place
where there is no TV, no car, no crowd. In
China people run to some remote mountains
and hills and start life in a quiet jungle.
They find companionships in God and religion and
spirits of the mountain.
that was what the native were thinking, a
peaceful living deep in the jungle. To
their surprise they heard the buzzing of the
machines felling the trees, chasing them
away from their tranquil life, and were told
to leave their homes as they are residing on government's land. It is too bad that
the greedy and the reckless are from the
human specie, robbing everything that a man
can have, from money to the peace of mind.
I feel lucky
that some businessmen are still considerate
and have refrained themselves from being blood
suckers. One Mamak restaurant, Mee Abu, is
more than a blood sucker, more greedy than
the Jews, charging their customers
exorbitant price. A can of Sprite where you
can get at RM2 somewhere else is sold at RM2.90 at this
particular place. Mee Pak Chop is very much
cheaper and more delicious than Mee Abu.
I talked to
my monthly maid about food economy and about
thrift. As an Indonesian poor she agreed.
With RM25 we can survive and sustain the raw fish and
vegetables for at least a week. She not only
agreed but also offered to make Sambal
Belacan and do a cooking from her home. All
I have to do is to buy the raw food and pick them up from her abode. She lives
about 5 miles away with her husband. I paid
her RM100 per service though the agreement
was RM10 per hour. In three hours she
would complete all the necessary job. They
were well done.
At the moment
I decline the offer. I am not so hard up
yet. I would not be so broke if I have not
been following the tour trips. There are
still cheap places around for a good meal.
Whatever I must always check my purse.
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
PASSED THE TRIBULATION
understand something about Christian beliefs
just for knowledge' sake. I watched a movie
depicting life after tribulation and
rapture. Islam also describes the happenings
similar to the Christians. If tribulation
has to happen it has to happen
simultaneously throughout the globe. The
movie showed it had happened and there were
chaos everywhere in the world. I feel it is
just happening in Malaysia these few years.
Malaysia is destined to be Tibet and
Zimbabwe. We are on the process of
destroying the nation and the religion by
going into the dominance of Communist China.
We have lost the sense of directions. We
talk and act insensibly.
world is looking at the coming of Jesus
including the Muslims. The earth has been
polluted with sins and sinners are in
control. The Muslims believe that Jesus will
descended to Syria. The other part of
society were taking about alien and UFO are
frequenting the world. The turmoil in Malaya
are clearly shown the prophesies are alive
now. Though I saw the Sea of Galilee is
still full of water I believe that God can
turn deserts into rivers and seas into bare
land. I tried to comprehend the modern
military weapons as the gog and magog. And
America and China as Dajjal.
American currencies are full of Illuminati
symbols, the Indonesians are yelling that
their new currencies contain the communist
symbol of hammer and sickle. Indonesia is
accumulating a very massive loan from China.
Malaya is dragged to doomsday by the big
loan also from the Middle Kingdom. I
predict that Najib will be the last Prime Minister of
Malaysia. The future generation should brace
themselves to live under Communist regime.
horrifying scene is real. Najib's team is
cheating themselves by hiding it or
diverting the attention of the masses to the
useless issues. I can assure you that they
themselves cannot sleep while thinking what
to do when the Chinese set up their demands.
Najib always think he could hoodwink the
Chinese as he had done to the other world
leaders like the Americans, Australians and
the new Zealanders.
look out for the Armageddon. Will the whole
world be shaken by earthquake with land
be caught by fire ?
The prophesies of the Holly Books may have
passed without our knowing them. I have
mentioned about the disappearance of
morality, government ruled rogue leaders and
robbers, people can't distinguish between
the rights and the wrongs, law passed to
same sex marriage and the free consumption
of marijuana and other dangerous drugs, free sex, public nudity and other things
which were once cursed as heinous and
Each day I
feel weaker and weaker not because of my old
age but because I find the force of evil is
getting stronger and bigger devouring the
living men and women. Many had been defeated
and bowed to the evil force, believing in
the promises of luxury and prosperity.
People have sold their souls to the Satan.
They are being controlled through radios and
TVs and the newspapers they read. Only a few
can retain their postures.
and Christianity discussed the longevity of
Dajjal which I refer as anti-Christ. And the
great Tribulation period was also
interpreted. If these have passed and the
rupture has gone unnoticed what it can mean
is that we are are all sinners left over. We
are all hypocrites save a few who always
seek God's forgiveness. Look at yourself, is
your and and heart free from any form of
greed at all, ready to shove and stab those
who are barriers to your path ? And think
you are the only right person and others are
While we are
living, whether the tribulation is ongoing
or the rapture has gone unnoticed, whether
we are sinners or not, we might as well do
good and repent at all time. We cannot have
different God, aren't we ?
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
Kit Siang should assist forex
Will Najib's diversion tactic work ?
Interestingly Kit Siang has accepted the
challenge and willing to be a member of the
taskforce. let's wait for the development.
MORE PLACES TO VISIT
I have three
trips I am looking forward to make this
year. The earliest is the Egypt-Nile Cruise
on the coming 27th March. But the tour
agency said there are no people yet despite
them changing the dates several time. I
still hope and believe it will materialize.
The second to Makasar with Rusli, 9M2RB, is
on our own on 19th April. And the last is to
Chiangmai-Chiangrai on the 24th August which
is still empty. These are considered as a
nearby attractions, Egypt being the farthest
among the three and the most expensive. I
hope to pay this Nile cruise with payment
loaned to my student. The agency said I
could pay the total even ten days before the
trip. It is a great relief. The time lapse
gives me enough time to accumulate for the
other two destinations.
You see I
don't pluck money from trees to travel. I
restrained myself from using my ASB saving.
My pension is not big either. I don't think
of rain days but to spend all I have
considering I don't have many more years to
live. Don't worry about spending time with
God because God is ubiquitous and you can
communicate and the Creator wherever you go.
We never forget God wherever we go. That
does not make us terrorists.
I used to go
with POTO Travel but stopped using their
service after their own carelessness which I
incurred a huge lost of money. I shifted to
SafirgoTravel. I went back to Poto when I
saw the Silk Route trip is suitable for me.
I registered the silk-route but later
cancelled owing to the clash between my
Makasar trip and the making of the visa.
Since I had paid the deposit I asked for an
alternative destination, the Thailand tour.
Egypt is with Safirgotravel.
I pay a
little bit more for a single room because I
need some privacy and more freedom. I want
to touch the pyramid and the
sphinx and to
ponder about their existence, and to relate
their associations with the alien being, the
gods that came to earth to culture mankind
and then went home. They are to return to
earth as a ruler. Some called him Lucifer
and some called him Anunarki. He will be
received in the Masonic lodge. The tour
leader will surely lecture us on the sphinx
and the pyramid.
I plan no
shopping except to buy some fruits to be
eaten in my hotel room. We have a total of 8
nights of sleeping in Egypt, and the rest on
the plane. I remember buying fruits and
snacks in a Chinese shop at a remote corner
at very cheap prices. At that time our
currency was still stable. Outsiders have
lost faith in our leaderships and reject our
I did mention
the word clash between Makasar trip and visa
processing to China; what does it mean ?
According to the tour agency, I must
surrender the passport 45 days before the
trip. My trip to Makasar is after I have
given away the passport for the visa. Then I
cannot visit Indonesia with the most
important document. Egypt is without a visa.
So is Thailand and even Japan. We can also
go to North Korea without a visa.
Route will have to be postponed to another
date minus Winter and thick jacket.
people had asked me whether I had find
anybody as a spouse. It was a big laugh to
me. When I went for a trip not an iota
crossed my mind about finding a girl. I
wanted to see places. I do not have any
intention of looking for a wife from the
group members, never. I told a Datin, our
traveling mate, that I can't look after any
of those woman. I won't be able to
accommodate their high living style. They
made me scared when they purchased stuffs
costing thousands of dollars. They have
You won't be
in peace with a prodigal woman.
places that I don't feel like going and
there are places I love to go again and
again. I will try to avoid the Philippines,
Bali and Russia for some sentimental
reasons. I have the desire to cruise in the
Toba lake. It was serene and so peaceful. I
felt like I was in a glorious sanctuary. I
love Bangkok for the good food and a cheap
and luxurious hotel.
meantime I jut wait for the words from the
tour agency as to the confirmation of the
departure date. So far I am the only one who
registered for the Nile cruize.
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
MOTA AND COTE
You may have
heard IOTA but not MOTA since you have been
sleeping for a long time. I would have
guessed that the term MOTA was invented by
the Malaysian amateur radio operators. It is
an acronym for Mountain On The Air where
hams would climb and camp to operate radio
on the mountain. Don't ask me why not HOTA
Hill On The Air. They may come up with the
term later on. FOTA is Forest On The Air and
TOTA where we go up on the trees and operate
radio stations on the trees. I wouldn't have
known it if I had not been invited to the
receive a letter to go to the SWAL
gathering. I asked around what did the SWAL
mean. I was told it was Short Wave Amateur
are very creative. They invents words and
terms and injected them to the world.
very few old hams left. probably there are
more 80% are of the new breed. The CB and
ham culture, lingo and procedures have
blended into one. You are nobody to say what
is right and what is wrong. The new
operators are better and smarter, parading
double call signs, both the Malaysians and
the American call.
What the old
hams use to know and have are no match to
the present ones. I still remember the
terminal unit that mal, 9M2MW, build and
gave me one and Chow, 9M2CF, pounding his
key with perfection. In those days a little
homebrewing was great. Today the technology
surpass our era. My friend showed
me his antenna analyzer. Who among us were
using such an measuring instruments when
constructing antennas ?
I don't blame
you for not knowing the current progress.
The passion has faded and the new technology
still keep us together. We communicate using
Whatsaap. If we don't join in we still read
and enjoy the conversation. I still have my
radio and warmed them up from time to time,
practicing my CW and listening to Morse
conversation, mainly to sharpen my mind. I
know some of you have not been switching on
your transceivers for years.
You may say
"I have not been on the air for a long time"
while the new guys may be saying "I am
the PTT for a long time". The germ spread
fast and resides deeply in every amateur operators'
skins. Rather than accommodating the modern
culture many prefer to stay aloof. We
conduct our affair in our own ways. While I
have a blog to write Zainal has tennis games
to watch. Lim is still active on the
Foxhunt. While they have the MOTA we have
Cote Cooler to drink.
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
THE GREED IN
I begin to
see a lump of greed has seeped into my soul.
I want to be a millionaire, to grow my own
saving to that amount. Without it surely I
would not have thought about it at all and
just be contend with my current life.
Yesterday I rushed to a Public Mutual, the
breeding house for money to grow. The agent
mentioned about 140% profit and in ten years
I could be a millionaire. I started to see
money around me, sitting on the heap and
shoveling the notes into the air.
I told myself
to be extra careful and to find out more
about the investment venture. A few friends
indicated truly that they are very wealthy.
They too advised me to be careful. It is a
risk that I should take. This morning I went
to ASB where my savings are dumped for many
many years. The officer also was talking
about the risk compared to the ASB. She
herself has some in Public Mutual. I mumbled
about my age and it's relationship with
money. What is the point of having so much
wealth and cash at the age when you are weak
and tired ? I can only use the money to pay
to someone to nurse me before I die. 10
years is too fast these days and I don't
think I will live to 80.
My parents do
not leave anything to me, not even a single
cent. I build this very home with my
earning. It is the only property that I
have. My kids must engrave their own future
and learn the importance in life, to find
wisdom to be a wise man. I have told them
what they should do for their success and
the job they should have done. I did carve
my own life. I have to make my own decision.
Should I enjoy with what I have or restrain
myself from all form of enjoyment and wait
for 10 more years to see how much the
pittance has grown up.
One thing I
learn about greed is money is never enough.
We tend to commit sins and inflict pain on
the others to reap a quick wealth. We cheat.
lie, steal, rob and pinch through various
projects and schemes. When we are too
occupied with chasing the world we will
forget the life at eternity, we forget God,
Heaven and hell.
I think I
need an intelligent and a smart wife. But I
am too old to find one. Women could be very
witty. Out of their craziness they could be
very successful in life. For God's sake I
don't really want a woman like Rosmah Mansor.
I have been seeing a jet shuttling from KL to
Alor Setar these few days. I was told she
comes to play badminton here and had a 2.8
million special toilet built for her. The
jet YES, the toilet YES. But for the 2,8
million I don't believe. It may only
cost RM2,800 or at most RM28,000. This lady won't die
I tell you. She is an immortal. She has all
the elixir of life.
But it is
difficult to find an ideal wife. Money is
like a ghost with an evil force. It is so
powerful that no man can resist it. I have
not seen a woman who can resist the
temptation , and to put God before the fun
of the wonderful life, who would say enough
with what she has and thank the Lord for the
providence. One Pinoy lady I talked to in
Los Angelese airport before departure
quipped "In America there is no love if
there is no money".
I have a
greed. I must not use the ASB dividend for
any purpose. Leave it there and let it
grows. If God let me lives till 80 then at
that age I will enjoy my reaping. It is
a great gamble. I leave the rest to fate.
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
MURDERING AN ENEMY
is unbelievable that a big boss still asked
his man to first eat the food for him to
test whether it was poisoned. In my previous
article entitled Cyanide In The Food I did
touched briefly on murdering through food to
look like a heart attack and the application
of the deadly poison on the skin. Today we
were told of the death of the half brother
of the North Korean President by a woman
using some form of a liquid.
The estranged half-brother of North Korean
leader Kim Jong-un has been allegedly killed
at the Kuala Lumpur International Airport (KLIA),
according to the police.
Selangor Police chief Abdul Samah Mat said
that a woman had reportedly approached Kim
Jong-nam at the KLIA departure lounge and
covered the victim's head with a cloth which
contained an unidentified liquid.
"Jong-nam's eyes were stinging after the
incident. He received help at the KLIA
counter before being sent to the Putrajaya
A layman like
us would not know the most effective way to
do a murder without being traced. Even if we
know we would not be able to get the weapon.
The normal Malaysians just do not go to the
extend of killing their most hated enemies.
And they can't afford to pay the gangsters
to do the work for them.
of us would be having a big celebration if
someone is strike by a lightning and die on
the spot. The celebration may take 44 days,
44 nights and 44 minutes. That's what the
weak and the helpless could only do; to hope
and pray. It is unlikely the horrible bitch
could be killed in manner the Kim bother met
government is quite friendly with North
Korea. Their students are in our colleges
and universities. To the world the this
communist nation is the most notorious and a
threat to South Korea and the United States.
I would narrow down the assailant is either
of the American or South Korean agent. The
cyanide is ever ready available to any of
Korean is too confident with their missiles
which they claimed could strike the
United States, forgetting the anti missile
weapons could destroy theirs in no time from the sky
deploying the centuries old leather
technology tested in the 80's. It is
called a Star War weapons.
The motive of
the killing could also be due to the
jealousy and revenge. But then a normal
person would not be able to get access to
cyanide like the C4 that destroyed Altantuya.
will tell the reason for the murder. Mine is
merely a conjecture.
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
WHAT TO WRITE
I don't know what else to write. If I
could I would want to stay away from
politics as it is the most painful topic
that has been torturing my mind. I can't
write about amateur radio because I do not
know what is going on in this hobby.
Story on traveling could bore many people.
Sometimes I asked myself "What am I writing
for ?" And I write with broken English and
bad grammar. I pay to say things in my blog.
I have said before that I put words in
English because I want to fight my
deficiency in the language. I never obtain a
pass either in the school test or the public
examination. My GRE scores told me that I am
better in analytical but the worst in
language. But it is too late for the fight.
My memory began to fade since I reached 50.
It could be better to start at 30 or 40. At
this age I hardly put my imaginations in
words and phrases.
I strive to improve by reading an E-book
stories and watches English movies. They are
just a futile effort, I can't remember words
nor could I increased my vocabularies. I
wasted my youth for not trying to build a
better man out of myself. It is too late to
regret and there is no turning back. Even
the future is too short for me. I just go
ahead with my life as fate decides.
Sometimes I wondered whether the atheists
believe in fate and predestination. Surely
they do not adopt these work of God. It is
men that make today and tomorrow, carving
their own future, determine by sweat and
blood, success comes with the awards,
failure with nothing. But believing in God
can sometimes make our life more wonderful
and exuberant. We always know that God is
watching and guiding us and provides us with
sustenance one way or another.
Do I achieve what I am aiming for ? To
appease myself I would say yes to it. I have
been writing for years now, expressing
myself and conveying messages which I think
a lot of people can understand. That's what
languages are for, to enable oneself to
communicate even with poor grammar or mix
lingo. I myself do appreciate those who dare
to express themselves despite their lacking
of proficiency in the language they choose
Of course I have tons to say about politics
and Najib. But that would give me pain and
mental agony. I have to leave it to God and
I believe there will be comeuppance and
retribution. To dissect amateur radio is to
cause pang in my heart. And to talk about
the cost of living and economy could kill me
slowly. To write about vices I myself am as
filthy as the the rest of the criminals.
I took a pause after the above paragraph and
went out for my brunch. On the way I stopped
at the Public Mutual to inquire about it's
investment. A friend of mine told me she
keeps all her saving in the Public Mutual
instead of the ASB. She is happy about it.
It drew my interest. At the financial
institution I was requested to make an
appointment to meet a consultant. I agree to
meeting one tomorrow at 10 am.
It is not because I am greedy and hunt for
more profit but because my fear is shaken by
Najib's financial management. He is a Malay.
And I began to lose trust on the Malays. If
somebody offer me a place to stay overseas I
would prefer to leave the country, to get
myself lost from the contemptuous lady. She
grabbed our money just because other people
do the robbing job. Others rob therefore I
have all the right to rob.
Whenever politicians got their fingers touch
on something it will turn into stone.
The Chinese are wiser with money. The Malays
thought they are smart when actually they
are moron to the core, susceptible to
conning and being cheated. May he be
Mahathir, Najib, Temenggung Hssan or Hussin.
When the Chinese see money they start
thinking how to multiply it. When the Malays
come across the huge sum they are thinking
how to fork them. They cheat the kampong
folks and they are being cheated by people
smarter than they are. That explains why
Najib is selling the country to China.
Whatever let me first hear from the
consultant. I will make an assessment before
shifting my ASB saving to Public Mutual.
The brunch cost me RM5.50. The next meal
will be at about 3 pm.
A writer has to have two things to be able
to write; rich in vocabulary and
excellent command of the language, secondly
he has to have a flare in writing. I later
realize that they are people with distant
vision and with high IQ. I don't have any of
them. That's why I write for pleasure not as
my bread and butter.
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
We tend to think that we are the most
perfect and we are the best. It took me more
than a century to see how weak I am compared
with millions and thousands of other
ordinary people, in physical and mental
prowess and in education and sports.
Problems that I could not solve as they were
hard and confusing to me were successfully
dealt with by my subordinates and friends.
Kids knew much more on computer than me.
Older women fast overtook me in the walking
I realize vanity and the feeling of being a
perfectionist is a serious sickness. I would
have thought I can fight and win after
having computed all the probabilities and
eventualities. It was to my dismay when all
went wrong. Instead of surrendering for the
good I am arrogant enough to push and rush
without further scrutinizing my past
When you are running the country you must
restrain yourself from being emotional and
arrogance, rejecting views of others and
continue with your devastating
egoistic policy. You engage ministers,
police chief, AG and bankers whom you have
told them to tow your line. When failures
come after failures, you are trying to
pinpoint to the failures of your
predecessors. You don't care whether you are
destroying your country or the people. You
murder the integrity and the sanctity of the
nation. You become ruthless and inhumane.
A wealthy and powerful man has never thought
that he can fall. He firmly believes that he
has an invincible shields around him. He is
a god and an immortal.
In our traditional society it was hard to
find a pompous and haughty person. Today the
numbers are beyond count. They are
everywhere on this earth. They get offended
when someone was showing them of the
deficiencies, weaknesses and stupidity. A
few will proudly parading their titles and
qualifications to show to the rest of the
world that they are better than the rest.
Islam forbids haughtiness, pomposity and
arrogance. I have been seeing these
characteristics among UMNO leaders and
members. An ordinary employee in an
organization conducted himself as if he is
the head of the institution. A man like
Jamal could go on rampage and kicked anyone
he likes. And only God knows as to the rest
of UMNO members and the personal army of
Najib Razak. Together they are now continue
to cause massive damage to the Malays and
the nation, creating fear among the foreign
investors who are ready to close shops here
and move away to some other respectable
If they fear God they won't accept dirty
money even by the millions. They won't
conspire to fabricate evidence to jail their
opponents. They won't defend the crimes and
thefts that have been happening openly. They
won't tell lie untiringly to the people.
They won't disgrace their race and religion
to the world. Islam is not what one is
telling people but is what of one's actions,
morality, considerate, fairness and honesty.
And the Malays are not thieves and robbers,
stealing money by the billions. Yet they
claim that they are the most perfect specie
on earth as they are chosen by God.
The man who corrupts other mankind to
enhance his image thinks he can corrupts God
to put him in heaven. That's why he used
stolen money to send the Muslims to Mecca
and frequent himself to the holly land. "I
steal but I do help people also."
Being a normal man is a chance for us to be
a moral person and run away from sins. Only
we need to remind ourselves that we are just
a small person with a lot of deficiencies.
We are not to boast and belittling others
and to show off and advertise our greatness.
We repent while we can and seek forgiveness
from God for our sins.
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
The game has
ended. I did not go to the stadium as I was
occupied with something else. I had hope for
my state to win but would not bet for it.
All teams in the cup competition this year
are very strong. Pahang had not been
defeated before. When the game started I saw
the skill depicted by an import player from
Pahang. The combinations of their attackers
were superb. Only luck was against them.
the usual style, short passing with
occasional attacks but failed to penetrate
the opponent's defense. Liridon had been the
target of slaying, aimed at killing
his carrier forever. Pahang's import was given
the dirty task to destroy him. I
remember JDT gave the killing task to Syafiq.
The strategy is very filthy in any kind of
sport at all. By the 43rd minutes kedah's
striker shot a goal after getting a pass from his mate.
third and fourth goals came after the first
half. They were all due to the result of the
teamwork. The striker scores from the ball
set up by his friend. It was this aspect
that made the game great and interesting.
Kedah had had to struggle to win by the score of
4 to 1. Fans who paid for the expensive
tickets found it worth the money they spent.
had exhibit a fine play, good teamwork and
fascinating soccer. In games somebody has to
loose and somebody has to win.
coach given credit to the players for
following the instructions given, which I
termed it as the discipline of a player. We
can find players who think they are better
than their coaches and decide to play their
own style. I have seen many of those people
who think they are better than the rest and
no one is qualified to teach them. Such an
arrogance is not confined to the game of
many good local players. I am sorry I don't
remember all their names. Syazwan and Farhan
are of equal class. Both have the
capabilities of making goals. Badrol
Bakhtiar is a class by himself. No other
local players could match him, not even
Fikri. He is almost equal to Sandro, the
import player. Sandro used to be a perfect
striker but beaten by Badrol so far in this
season. Honestly I do not like Khairul Helmi,
the defense player for his roughness on his
opponents and he cannot run fast enough.
Fullbacks must be equally fast as the
strikers to match the opponent's attackers.
Let me not
talk about the type and nature of training
for two reasons. The first is because I have
not been nor seen their training procedures.
Secondly, even if I can guess it is much
wiser not to expose them.
It is too
early to say anything. The season has just
started and ends in
November or December, a long way to go. A
team may break and weakened due to financial
and other problem. The coach of a winning
team may resign. A sport may turn out to be
a war. There were already talks about
corruptions involving bookies. We do hear of
corruption to loose but not the corruption
to win. Why not the third party offer big
rewards for winning a championship ?
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
sugar reading this morning as 5.2, point two
lower than yesterday. I felt relief and
continued to enjoy my siesta on my lazy
sofa. Bteakfast will be at 10am, either
tomato rice or Roti Jala which has risen by
50 cents after the recent fuel hike. The
Roti Jala has been recklessly saltish these
few days. Malay food are either too sweet or
too saltish. I switched my dinner from the
Malay stall to the Mamak's to avoid
excessive salt from the former.
I have not
decided yet of whether to watch a soccer
match at the stadium or on TV since there is
a live telecast, between Kedah, my state,
and Pahang, Najib's state. Ticket will start
selling at about 10.30 this morning. At home
I'll be watching alone, without any yelli ng
and shouting. Yet I will throe curse at
referee and players who make silly errors.
At the stadium I will shout at the top of my
voice. Young people usually would laugh at
me, seeing an old man yelling. I pay RM25
just for the love of outside coaching, even
scolding the coach for not teaching the
basic of perfect ball passing.
The game is
at 9pm. It does not obstruct me from my
going to the routine evening walk from
5.30pm to 6.30pm. But I have to go to the
jogging track earlier as crowds are swelling
these days, taking away the parking space.
At one corner there will be a women aerobic
team which bring a lot of food to enjoy
after the exercise. Funny, how are they
going to slim themselves with the starch
intake after the chore. Taking the food
before would give a different result.
In between I
just stay home, typing blog, reading FB and
Whatapp's comments. Or watching Chinese
movies. Let me take a pause here to go for
my breakfast and will continue in the next
town is hell. But I have no choice. At the
junction to the main road I had a long wait.
Traffics never seem to ease. Cars coming on
their right of ways would not care as to how
long you are at the junction. Very rarely
the driver would halt and allow you to pass.
It takes a really considerate person to
understand the pain of waiting. I believe
the best way to know a man is to see him
while behind a wheel. It is hard to find one
out of a hundred. By a normal social
interaction we would not know a real quality
of a man.
It took me
about 10 minutes to arrive Majeed's stall
which he named it a restaurant, actually a
dingy food lotof about 30' by 45'. The rice
was almost finished. The sale has been good
for most of the days. I ordered rice with
fish that cost me RM5.50. The gravy is
always delicious. People pay for the good
surprise when Majeed asked me how much I get
for my pension. I told him that I get 3K per
month. "So little ? Is it enough ?" He
"Enough," I said.
"Why so little ? You were a Headmaster
"Old salary was small. Now they got a big
pay," I answered.
I felt it is
already an abundance at that amount of
pension money. I have
to be thrifty and cutting corners here and
there, no wastage in anything.
On the way
home I passed the stadium. The counter
ticket at the grand stand did not open. two
counters on the rear and the southern side
of the stadium were heavily queued
with fans. I told myself to come back
tonight for the ticket. If there aren't
there anymore I would watch the match at
To the fans a
game is a game. They always believe that
Kedah will win. They do not know what is
behind the game itself. Actually soccer on
the inside is as dirty as politics of UMNO.
Politicians and royalties should not get
involved in any way at all. UMNO's mind is
never straight and very corrupt. Most are
uneducated and stupid but assert themselves
as smart as a wiz. They run the state Amanah
Saham and it went haywire. They went into
amateur radio, the hobby took another turn.
They went into business the money went into
losing cannot be mandatory. Only one team
will win. The other is a draw. The fans
actually want to see a good and fair game, a
good refereeing, a good goal keeping, the
show of efforts, and make the least
mistakes. They would accept the lost without
regret or feeling frustrated.
The game will
end at about 11pm. I do not go to bed at
that time. I will play around with my toys
until I get sleepy. That will be at about 2
The time will
come when everything comes to a stop, when
my mind stops functioning and my heart stops
VISIT USA ?
If there is
no Muslim at all in the United States will
there be no prison at all ? Here is I quote
"The united States imprisons 730 in every
100000 people - the highest incarcerated
population in the world...currently there
are 2.2 million people behind bars..."
At least more than 50% are White and
Hispanic. The Blacks prisoners who became
Muslims during their incarcerations are
regarded as Muslims in prison. What is this
telling us ?
telling Trump that no Christian could turn
criminals and only Muslims are bad people
should not only banned the Muslims from
entering the continent, he should also call
back all the ambassadors and American
companies to the United States, cut all form
of trading ties. The Muslim nations can use
alternative satellites for communications
and media broadcasting and start their own
fast food restaurants instead of eating out
at Mac Donald or KFC. The world has been
existed even before there was the United
States. Primitive society survived without
the hitech inventions. Why should the Muslim
countries be worried if they are not
know the World Wars were not started by the
Muslims. In the West the Christians killed
architecture of the trouble maker always
have their own agenda and goals and smart
enough to trigger the global killing and
bombing, the murder and the conquest. Henry
Kissinger was the first man to coin the word
terrorist to mean the Muslim. It was
followed by the rest of the world including
the Muslim leaders. Mahathir had wanted to
close down all the islamic institutions.
Najib was telling Hillary that Anwar Ibrahim
was a Malaysian terrorist leader implying
the Malay Muslims in Malaysia are mostly
not lament over the United States policy.
Nor should we beg and shed our tears from
the President as Rosmah and Najib is doing
to Obama, Hillary and now Trump. For those
who love traveling and sight seeing let me
tell them there are more beautiful places in
the world other than North America. There
are exotic and spectacular scenes in China
and the Baltic area. And there are thieves,
robbers, swindlers, street people and
beggars in US cities more than we can find in Japan or
Korea. We can just forget about Trump and
I choose to watch Chinese movies rather than
the American. There are numerous fascinating
stories that would entertain me. Chinese Communist movies teach
us more about life and survival, on how the
rich tried to squeeze the poor on their land
and about scammers preying on the public.
There are many stories on lives of common
people. There are comedies and adventure
movies as well. Korean movies too are as
entertaining as the Chinese. How bad are we
without the Americans ? We can just ignore
the President and forget that this man
does exist. Neither do we regard him as our
we are and enjoy our lives here. Don't fight
about the travel ban. You won't die for not
going to USA.
I AM NOT A
I made a
remark on the distribution of the free
tickets on a soccer cup between Kedah and
Sarawak. A ticket costs between RM15 to RM25
each but given away free by the Chief
Minister of Kedah to win the heart of the
voters. I did not agree with the free ticket
but in favor of opening all the gates. Not every denizen of the state will
rush into the stadium. Parking space s were
limited and those shorties who can't see the
players prefer to leave the venue. The free
tickets were to be given in the morning
before the night game and each person was
entitled to three tickets maximum. I firmly
believed the free tickets will be sold to
those who failed to get one. My guessed was
true as many were willing to pay for them.
were read and met with several responses.
One of them asked me whether it would be
okay for me to join the True Friends group
in the Whatsapp. I agreed.
myself at a loss, a small alien from
nowhere. I hardly comprehend the
discussions. They talk about rules,
regulations, policies, coaching and games,
names and scores of the international
They knew the details of what's going on in FAM, clashes of various opinions and other
big names. From time to time I quipped in
like expressing my concerned on JDT going to
play under the 11 to 12 degrees Celsius and
the muscle's acclimatization period was too
short to the cold weather. Nobody responded.
I felt as if I was talking nonsense to
myself. It must have been a trivial remarks,
a kid talk.
realized there were coaches, officials and
even holders of Sports Science degrees. The
lost of JDT to Gamba Okinawa sparked wider
discussions. There was also official
statement of TMJ on the defeat. Slowly the
talk slides on the problem with Malaysian
soccer and the coaches. They mentioned the
lack of rest, tiresome and worn out. Someone
also touched on the cold weather.
I am no
player, nor an expert in anything, a good
for nothing guy. But I
like to observe on things and happenings,
political and human behaviors. When China
women's volleyball team were at their peak,
they were invited to the United States for a
series of matches. What do you expect the
USA to do ? Paying tenths and thousand of dollars
just to enjoy the games ? They are trying to
untie the secret of the Chinese. Certainly they
would put electronic eyes to capture the
games, a numerous of them at every angles
and recorded at different movie speeds. Then they
would study the posture and the movements,
the art and the technique and ever minor
movements and gestures from all the
matches, discuss and analyzed them.
observed that each US gymnast has a personal
psychologist or someone to look after her
interest, need and welfare beside the
gymnastic coach. She was to make sure the
emotional state of the gymnast is stable and
at ease during the competition. I would
conclude similar system were applied to some
other international sports and
Would I be
wrong to say that a soccer player has more
than running and kicking the ball ? When I
saw a player smoke then I knew he has no
knowledge about what cigarette can do to his
lung and how it could effect the game
performance. He lacks discipline. We can
notice the absent of alertness of a player
in the field. We would know why header ball
to the goal was soft.
means the quick cooperation of the
neuromuscular coordination. There is a
series of system procedures to injectl the
idea of powerful heading and ball speed,
about the speed of response and the E=MC2. I know the Kedah team has a coach to
run this type of physical fitness. But even
at his peak he won't be able to catch a ball
at a speed of 32 feet per second square.
Heading with strong impact may need a
machine to help. I think it is one of the
most hectic and tiring practice.
education and food nutrient and matters on
muscle care need to be looked into as well.
These are all outside the green playing
field where each player runs for the ball
and kicks it. There must be people thinking
about it. A soccer team has to be a well
organized structure, comprises of several
themes. Those are complexities which incur
imagine the cost of a professional soccer.
Who want to talk about funding ? It is one
of the most tricky issues. But I will try to
babble rubbish about it. I am sure some of
it will have to be true.
Of course all
has to starts with the overhead cost which
we should term as a fix constant debit, pay
for players, coaches, traveling, food and
beverages, administrative. Then followed by
an obvious, "Where to get the funding ? "
FAM ? Gate ? State government ? Sponsors ?
Let me say
something about gate collection first.
Common sense tells us that the amount of
money collected depends on the number of
spectators. This depend on the strength of
the team. The team at the lowest ebb will
suffer the most. Malaysia is not Abu Dhabi
where a team cannot depend on the gate
the stadium is almost empty all the time.
Here, even at full capacity part of the collection
has to go to the FAM and a portion to Najib
Razak for the GST.
has to fall back on the state government for
funding. As a layman I don't know the
commitment of each state though Federal
Government may have some allocation for the
national team or the FAM. When a state won a
championship politicians were given credits
and the winning were attributed to the care
and involvement of the leaderships. They
will be photographed together with the
winners. How true
is it ? I don't know. However, I think it is hard for
the state government to set aside a certain
allotment to help the state team.
A team can
hope and wait for a sponsorship. But let me
say even if it hurts that only fools provide
sponsorship without any return profit. For
every dollar spent must commensurate with
the benefit gained. It must ensure a
good return. Air Asia and Emirates are known
to sponsor teams in return for the
advertisement. And they were favored by
those states. Look at the number of small
towns Air Asia get to fly in many parts of
the world. If a team just want the whole
money without any promise and conditions who
could be foolish enough burn their millions away.
foreign stadium that I ever visit was the
Real Madrid in Spain. I cannot say anything
about Manchester United or Liverpool.
Tourists to Spain make a tour to this place
with entry fee of about RM200 each. There
are thousands of them flocking, taking
pictures and enjoy the sight of the
multimedia in the museum and the beautiful
grass. Jerseys and jackets are of a high
quality sold at a good price. A Real Madrid
refine jacket is about RM600, and sell like
a hot cake. It generates a
good income. I would expect each of the
state stadium to find ways and means to
generate income to replenish a part of the
It is now
well known that political leaders want to
take attribute the success of a team or a
game to their excellent ruling. Winning
could win them majority votes. It was
Barisan Nasional that brought Chong Wei and
Nicole David the fame of championship.
Hitler had the Olympic in Germany boost his
image. Sports under Communism had been tools
I do not know
whether it is not strange to see fights
among politicians and loyalties about
positions in soccer. To me politicians have
their own jobs in the government to ensure
prosperity and wealth are equally
distributed among the people and to resolve
acute economic problems that are devouring
our country. The royalties are to see on the
matters of the states.
the superficial babbling on the lifeblood of
football. Money does not guarantee
championship. It sustain the survival of a
most to me are the brain, attitude and the
spirit. The brain study the sports, analyze
how each country runs them. Datuk Ahmad Basri
was not a star player but he has a brain and
social skill. He inspired his players. The
brain will want to know how Timor Leste
could be stronger than our teams and send
feelers to eye-spy on them and other foreign teams. He scents
all other factors that could create a strong
and respectable soccer fraternity. Robert Albert had had
a long term plan laid down but it was cast
aside and nobody knows of it's fate. And the
brain has a perfect vision and distant insight.
He may not be a Prince, a Tan Seri or Donald
somebody in the soccer fraternity mentioned
that 'there is no holiday for me. All days
are working days.." That's is about
attitude. I am not saying anything more on
the subject matter.
We don't blow
the spirit into the players' bodies. It
looms from a state of mind. It comes together
with the readiness and skill, the discipline
to carry out the words of the coaches, the
speed he can move up and down, and the
determination to score goals.
are strong teams but there is only one to be
a champion. More often than not the champion
has several supermen who can work magic in
dribbling and scoring. We can elevate our
standard but we may not be a champion. We
are not a pariah anymore and may not be looked
down with contempt and disdain.
As I have said above I am
only a sparrow among the big birds in the whatsapp group. I only dare to
express my view in my own cocoon.
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
PAY FOR OWN
must not be blamed for the folly of your
own. We usually do not heed to warning or
listen to people's advice. It was
frustrating to some whose hearts were broken
for being threatened lie a dummy. They were
attacked, yelled and insulted. Many a
mistake cannot be undone. There is no point
crying over a split milk and demand for
forgiveness. That is the life that we have
from various myriads of folly errors;
quitting a good job, marrying a bad woman,
committing crimes, voting for Barisan
National and putting a wrong person as a
prime Minister. Mahathir had made the
greatest mistake ever in the history of this
whole universe and he is paying for his
We tend to be
ruled by our ego. We right what others see
as wrong. And when we fail we fall back to
those who once were trying to put us in the
right path. But we not only ignore them we
also throw vicious words at them.
I am over 70
now and about to die. I don't want to worry
anymore about other people who had designed
their own sufferings. Even if it may involve
the national issue like China is ruling
Malaya, let it be as it comes to be. Life is
too short for me. Instead I found it
hilarious when I saw a long queue at the
petrol kiosks many hours before the petrol
hike. They vote for the price hike, for the GST, for the ringgit to dive down and for
the rising cost of living.
I found it
stupid for a contractor who spend all his
money from the earning until he has none in
the saving and life became difficult as his
business went down. It irritated me when I
was requested for a 200K loan as if I were a
millionaire. I tried to talk to this person
who seem to have no time to listen to me. He
treated me like a bank not a human.
having chosen a wrong spouse for a life long
partner that wasn't life long. It is a rare
case where they leave to their parents to
choose the bride or bridegroom for them.
Some divorced within a short years. Some
continue living in hardship trying to make
ends meet. Others live on immoral and
illegal earnings. Once in a wedlock there is
no point to regret. Not many live in luxury
as Rosmah Mansor and other Wanita UMNO.
Those who rebel against their parents will
have to bear the sufferings of their sins.
thing to happen to the Malay community is
their disintegration, the lost of their
integrity, land and the country as a result
of their own doings. They do fail to know
what Najib is doing to them and the country.
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
HAPPY SELLING LAND TO CHINA
The trip to Silk Route is officially
cancelled due to the clash between the visa
procurement procedures and my Makasar trip
where I have to have my passport with me.
Two alternatives were suggested to me, the
Japan and Chiangmai's trips. Japan will be
in May and Chiangmai in August. I chose
Thailand because it is a little cheaper and
there is no waste date. Waste date is
something like traveling and a long transit
time. However the price has shot up from 2k
to 3k owing to the plunging of our ringgit.
This economic illness could only be undone
if Najib resign as a Prime Minister or he
divorces his wife. He would not do either of
Chiangmai is near but I have never been
there yet. We will be able to optimized the
4 nights stay as there is no waste time in
But August is a long way to go. I have ample
time to accumulate my money. I could inhale
some fresh air and free from my
financial restrain by then. In between now and the
24th August I could hop to nearby places for
resting and sight seeing.
Again a similar question pop up. Will I live
till 24th August ? There will be
numerous events, major and minor, which
could even shook the world and the country.
There might even be a civil war among the
Malays. More of our lands may be sold to
I may feel healthy and strong. But there is
always a silent killer within ourselves,
unknown and unseen. Unexpectedly I may be
killed by a stroke. People can die any
There is no harm to put myself in a
fantasizing mode from now onwards as long as
I feel the joy of dreaming. I have read and
scrutinized the itinerary for both of rge
Japan and Thailand packages. The 6 days 4
nights Japan minus 2 days of pure traveling
cost rm7878. The 5 days 4 nights Thailand
cost me 3K. Tour starts on day1 and on day
5. The additional amount I have to pay the
travel agent is 2k by July. Our carrier to
Chiangmai is Malindo. I have yet to make an
early purchase from Alor Setar to KLIA on
the 23rd August, a day before the trip. The
return ticket will be on the 28th by the
night flight. I will also be bringing a
backpack without any other luggage.
Talking about touring I just read about
people being cheated by somebody claimed to
be a tour agent. One must be prudent to
choose a well known tour agency. It is wise
to make a payment through the bank
transfer or using checks into an the
company's account rather than paying cash at
the counter. A friend would be able to tell
us these companies. There are plenty in the
newspapers. We can trust the agencies that
participate in the MATA fair. I have been
going with POTO TRAVEL and SAFIRGO TRAVEL.
ANDALUSIA, FELDA and PINEAPPLE were said to
bee good agencies too. I had had a little
mishap with POTO but I think they must have
it fixed. The last trip to Jordan/Israel was
with Safirgotravel. It was an excellent one.
You cannot trust a Malay these days even
with a Hijab or with a Haj dress, an
ordinary man or a Minister. He could be more
than a leech.
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
NATION TOWARDS DOOM
How smart are
UMNO members ? Their rhetoric as if they are
on top of the world, the smartest and the
cleverest, the savior of the Malay race. If
you ever hear the mad people talk while they
are in their cells, you would think they all
deserve the international award for their
wisdoms and ingenuity. Honestly when I heard
them talking in the General Assembly I
equate them with the men in Tanjung Rambutan
cells. What they have been yelling are
different from what is happening on the real
They love to
declare that they are divine choice, chosen
by God to rule Malaysia. By their pomposity
what emerge before my eyes were the Pharaoh,
Mussolini, Hitler, Geotfe Bush, Idi Amin,
Kim Ill Sung, Natenyahu and Trump. Weren't
they the God's chosen too ? I have heard
hilarious statements from many of them since
the issue of 1Mdb was first loom.
making a lot of profit. The opposition is
jealous over it's success"
"If Najib were to
steal any money, he won't keep it in the
"Media is lying
about any money in Najib's account."
"UMNO allows the party's fund to be put in Najib's account"
"I went to see a donor by myself."
were several donors."
the social media. They lie."
would have been the whole day to publish.
cornered as thieves are caught, the thieves
began to put the blame on the robbers and
other criminals. It is okay to steal because
Mr David stole too. Mr Jim was a thief as
well but he ain't caught." When selling land
and other interest to China they came up
with another kind of spinning "The forest
city is grand. Come and see it.." Then they
began to sweep our security domain away and
away until one day the army will have no
place to go. These UMNO guys are blind to
They need to
know how many top UMNO leaders are being
conned in many ways and in many areas. I
came across the con story since I was a kid,
a state secretary being cheated by
businessmen from Penang. Later I discovered
the spectrum of coning is much wider, from
counterfeiting to land reservation. Even
today counterfeits are generated from the
bank ATM machines and the machines are under
contracts. Who are the owners ? And the
Malays are driven to the pigeon dwelling as
land are very expensive as ownerships are
UMNO speakers felt very smart and flawless.
While the Malays are sufferings for being
sacked from their job by the tenth and
hundreds of thousands, the cost of living is
sky rocketing, Prices went up almost weekly
by more than 100%. The ringgit continue to
plunge which causes the import goods and
commodities shot inversely to the value of
ringgit. You see their faces in the hall,
clapping hands at the empty speech that
praised Najib as high as God sometimes as
the denizens are struggling, competing to
survive. The so-called low cost housing set
up by the government also a cosmetic to
deceive the public. I said so because I
tried to do the booking and it always come
up with a full or I never receive any
feedback. These houses will not go the right
way and to the right persons.
been reports on scams, thieves, kidnaps and
robberies. And now the pornographic business
and a new kind of drugs for distributions.
The first thing I would ask was who were
involved, the Malays, Chinese, Indians,
Nigerians ? The happenings are real and
true, scary and weird. They do not match the
noisy rhetoric of UMNO politicians at all.
of the unity while they sacked the party
members including the Deputy Prime Minister
and the chief Ministers and they said those
sacked persons leave the party they once
promised to love. These kind of tongue
twisters have been promised their place in
hell in eternity.
REFLECTS MALAY FRUSTRATION AND UMNO FAILURES
UMNO vent their frustrations on the
Chinese using DAP as their scapegoat. In
several of his outburst he talked about the
number of APs the Malays get compared with
rest, the Chinese control the business and
expressed angers on the Malay rights. He
blamed the failure of his business on the
Chinese. He felt insecure and seeing a
defeat, developed a kind of phobia that the
Chinese is taking over the country as he
realized the strength of the Chinese
economically and politically.
All his fear
originated from the failure of UMNO. This
country is not ruled by DAP. The power and
the constructions of policies do not come
from DAP. Whatever he sees around him is
within the realm of the ruling party lead by
a group of Malay leaders. The finance
minister is Najib. The GST comes from the
same man. Some ministers and individuals
were given millions of ringgit by the same
to elicit money from Najib knowing the later
has plenty of it. He got them but he could
not walk away as he has to sustain support.
He has to continually paid the supporters.
And each day
Jamal is seeing scary things happening; the
sale of TRX and military land to China, the
crazy rail contract with China, the Johor
land sale to the foreigners. These were
UMNO's doing. His mind went confused. He
can't shoot on his own party he ran amok on
the Chinese running a licensed gambling den
with a troop of gangsters.
If Malaysia made itself as a Chinese Naval
base the Malaysians should brace themselves
for the worst. The US-China increasing
tension in the South China Sea can explode
into a war in this region. China would not
want to go a war with Trump as she is more
interested in making money to enrich
herself. But how long can she remain
defensive if USA is putting greater pressure
by enforcing more of it's fleet around this
The CIA will
use all of it's might to unseat Najib while
China will shield Najib with the strongest
available accouter. Even without any
US-China sea battles Najib will be made a
puppet. And Najib will rule for as lomg as
he lives, long enough for the whole of
Malaya will be sold to the Communist. The
Malays will submit to be under the Chinese
as living under Najib have been causing them
that Najib will be the last Prime Minister
from the Malay stock. You can't undo the
damage by talking, shrieking and yelling.
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
has been in my dream for a long time.
Several days ago I paid the book fee of 1K
to the travel agent for May 11 trip. The
company requested for the passport to be
sent by 24th April for the Visa. That would
be a headache since I have to have the
passport with me for the trip to Makasar on
the 18th of April. I then notified the agent
Just now I
was informed by the land line that the
company will provide me with my suggested
alternatives which I need to choose one of
them. The alternative is either to Japan in
April or Chiangmai. Chiangmai would cost me
about 2K and Japan 6K, whereas the Silk
Route is 12.5K. That will be a big relief
for me as my purse is almost depleted and I
can only accumulate enough for my
alternative destination by the end of
February. Tomorrow I will get back half of
the loan given away.
A stupid acts
smart, a pauper acts a millionaire. I am
both the stupid and the pauper. I must have
given an impression that I am one of those
with tons of money. Actually I am running
against time. I want to see as much as
possible with a little time left. I have
seen Mahathir suffers but I will have no
chance to see Najib and Rosmah in the
extreme agony for both will live till more
than 90 or may be immortals by their
injecting with cells that will perpetually
remain unchanged. I already felt a sudden
weakness in my body. It would be almost
impossible to be over 75. I can die even
tomorrow. The sooner I die the better. At
least I can run from Najib. The political
panorama today is very bizarre.
to say that you see one you see all. I found
that it was not necessarily true. New York
is not the same as Tokyo in cleanliness, the
courtesy of the people and the
transportation system. Cotton Hill in
Turkey is not the same as Cameron Highland
of Malaysia. Even the Floating Market in
Bangkok and Hatyai are different in themes
Beauty is a
good food for our soul. The captivating
sights of heavenly sceneries permeate
happiness, tranquility and joy.
There is no
rule to bar the poor from traveling. The
poor has no qualm in choosing the people as
their company, lawyers, doctors, Datuks, Tan
Seri or the lowly unemployed persons.
However I always distant myself from those
of the higher echelons. I have always let
them knew that I am jobless and poor. When
people buy, I just watched.
backpacking is cheap but having a lot of
hassles to do especial to work on Visas.
Following the package trip is simple but
very costly, estimated 1K per day except to
the nearby countries. With the present
currency situation the cost is climbing. I
used to pay 7K to New Zealand which is
almost double now. Though China is still one
of the cheapest, the Silk Route is very
expensive. Now that it has been cancelled I
can take a deep breath. In the meantime I
just wait for the new suggestions from the
As far as the
Makasar trip is concerned everything has been set. All
tickets have been purchased and lodging
paid. I even have the Indonesian Rupiahs,
enough for the trip. I don't expect to find
anything spectacular in the island. But I
find the hotel we are staying in is
comfortable for siesta and relaxation. So
far I enjoyed the hotel in Padang, Ayaas
Hotel in Amman, the Pratunam in Bangkok and
the Hyatt in Medan. I did not pay the
kimgsize price for the kingsize hotel.
Just now my
student banked in 50% of my loan into my
account, just enough to pay for my
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
THE LESS KNOWN LEGEND
breath was at 11.15 last night at Sultanah
Bahiyah's general hospital. He was 78 and
was very well known among the sportsmen. In
school he played soccer and rugby. I was
told that he played rugby for the state of
Kedah. I don't remember since when he was
the Principal of Sultan Abdul Hamid College,
the prestigious old school that produce many
national leaders and administrators. Doctor
Mahathir was one of the students. One of the
sports that he loved most was soccer.
do not know is his contribution to
information technology. In early 80's I
purchase 16 computers for my school, the
famous Apple using a floppy disk to store
data. Ours was the first in the state to use
computers and students who took commerce had
to learn a few application software related
to their studies. It was not in the school
curriculum. I taught the commerce teachers
and they had to help me imparting the
instructions to the kids.
drew the interest of a friend by the name of
Mohd Hafidz. Hafidz got interested and
purchased a NEC from our friend Zuber. He
got a few students around him and these
young boys enthusiastically developed some
amazing graphic soft wares. I would say
those boys were genius. Hafidz was close to
Kassim and he convinced his principal to
purchase a few more machines of the same
brand. A computer lab was
opened. The school solicited more PCss
from Mirzan Mahathir, the son of the Prime
Minister then. The lab was completed. I was
invited to give a talk to the students on
what the computers can do and the future of
another plan, to have a launching ceremony
of the lab as Mirzan was the main
contributor. He did. Mahathir was invited
for launching. He was impressed
with the students work. Being a man with
vision and a
distant foresight, things did not end there.
Not long later we heard about the opening of Cyberjaya. Surely I was very glad with the
news and Kassim too. Only Doctor Mahathir
could tell whether Kassim had inspired him
to push for the new policy. Certainly at
that moment of time I had had given the
credit to Hafidz, Kassim, the computer wiz
and the grand school of Sultan Abdul Hamid
Now Kassim is
dead, nobody but Hafidz is left to tell the
rest of the history.
happen to my school was a long story which
would depict foolishness, stupidity, shame
and successes. It was a story of envy,
jealousy, arrogance and the hard fight
There was a
feedback to correct my story above. It says
that Kassim was no more the Headmaster
during Mirzan's presentation of the
computers and the launching by Dr Mahathir.
I could have been wrong. I do not remember
who was there after Kassim. But I remembered
well the computer story started during his
VERSION OF THE STORY - It was him and Kassim
who started with the computer in the 80's. A
woodwork was turned into a computer lab. The
school purchased more computers to make the
total to about 40. Dr Mahathir presented a
PC to the school during their time. They
went to pick up the computer at the airport.
It was during Kassim's period when I was
called to give a talk to the students.
the school. Hafidz left in 1992 for
Universiti Utara Malaysia. Mirzan's donation
was after Kassim he and Kassim had left the
school. There was a new funding for the new
lab. It was hard for him to remember when Dr
Mahathir saw the program developed by those
wiz kids. he couldn't remember whether the
Prime Minister came to the school during
stressed that Kassim and he himself had set
a very strong foundation for computing.
NAME AND CALL SIGN
amateur radio call signs and operator's
names had never been an issue. One of the
most popular call sign was JY1, Hussein,
from Jordan. He always have a massive
pileup. Among the many he picked up a friend
whom he introduced himself as Hussein and
continued with him on regular contact. The
man finally asked him his occupation. A few
Malaysians including 9M2RB, Rusli, were
successful in working JY1.
knew what a ham radio was and accepted the
tradition of the hobby.
In ham radio
we used a short name like LIM, MAT, JOHN
instead of the full name. Sometimes we give
nick name to our fellow friends like Eshee,
Tengku or Cikgu. I prefer to be called MAN
by all, old or young people. Conferred
titles like Sir, Dato' and Tan Sri would
segregate and group hams into classes an
status. We had been fortunate to talk to
Kings, scientists and doctors without
knowing their social status. Everyone shared
an equal status.
I began to
hear whispers on call signs in the 21st
century. I never knew 9W2GOD until somebody
talked about it. They relate his character
to the call sign and it became an issue.
Some began to point out the beginning of the
damage cause to ham radio by the authority.
Then there were 9W2 who demanded for the two
alphabet suffixes when converted to 9M2s,
claiming they were senior enough to be
conferred with the two alphabet suffixes.
Later there were issues on the one alphabet
suffixes which were previously given to
visitors operating in the country for a
short period of time especially in IOTA.
interesting to observe that there is a great
competitions among the amateurs in many
areas to prove of their superiority and
technical know-how. Some brag and openly
belittle others. Old hams get the most lash;
stupid and know nothing. It is a new
phenomena that are strange to the old hams.
To assert oneself an amateur waves his
American call sign insinuating he is a
ladder taller than the rest. But at the same
time he forgot that he is displaying
dishonesty in getting the ticket with the
American address. A Datukship elevate
individuals that sometimes could break ham
Going back to
the story of JY1 remind us the importance of
being humble and polite. I knew I talked to
a King only when I received the QSL card. So
were the pilots and the Congressman and
should have looked into the suffixes awarded
like GOD, ASS and a few others which may be
I would not
find names depicting a social status or an
authority entertaining and I don't find
greatness in a person who is flagging his
academic or professional achievements. I
would still respect them without the show of
their prowess. Sometimes a simple bite by an
insect could cause a fatal injury, the total
understanding of the LC in tune circuit
could be the insect bite when we can't
explain it in depth.
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
When I was on
the Hong Kong-Shenzhen visit the Hong Hong tour
guide was swearing and cursing the Chinese
Communist with extreme anger for making the
people in Hong Kong suffer. Factories were
moved to the mainland and people were losing
their jobs. The tour leader in the mainland
China was a sweet Chinese lady who conducted
the tour very well. But she responded back
aggressively with smile when one of our tour
members condemned communism. And the tour
leader in North Vietnam was cursing the
communist leaders for corruption and
I think human
specie is similar in characters despite
their differences in race, creeds and skin
What a great
leader like Mahathir is now experiencing are
shared by many others in the world. Mahathir
was a Prime Minister for 25 years. I was a
school principal for 23 years. Others may be
holding the posts as leaders longer than we
A boss has
friends and enemies. Enemies want him down
while the friends will show respect and
obedience. Above me was my boss and I vowed
to him and did my best to please him.
Subordinates who conduct their work well
obliged to fulfill their responsibilities.
Whether the head was there, invisible or
dead they would perform their tasks as
task laid out. But a few among the many
would provide extra service, show concern in
various ways, sending food to the boss home,
never reject any of the request and always
made the boss felt they were kind,
resourceful and trustworthy. In today's term
it is called bootlicking. All with hidden
people would be asking favors by throwing a
little hint, which were always honored by
the boss. I am sure you yorselves would come
across such a person during when you have
subordinates under you. When Mahathir was
a Prime Minister there were an alarming numbers
who became his heroes and promising
the favors and goodies were lost when I stopped working. Those
people disappear before my eyes except for
the unbelievable few who spoke and treat me
as if I am still their leader. There is
no more cookies sent to my home, everyone is
busy to send me to the airport or accompany
me while I was fixing the school computer
system. It is nothing strange to me. I
cannot give them anything anymore. I am not
worth a single cent. For a common man like
many of us I do not feel hurt.
But for Mahathir to be
treated like a cur by a man who was made a
Prime Minister by him, and verbally insulted
by UMNO Ministers like Salleh Keruak is
something unspeakable. We should have
listened what Saddam Hussein said during his
trial, "I am your President and how can you
treat me like a criminal..." Mahathir
was a statesman and he is already 92 years
Are we not a
weird specie ? A dog could be better than a
Muslim teacher told me that one day he saw a
limping dog. Putting a globe he examined the
dog's leg. It seemed to be broken. He
bandaged the dog's leg and using a wooden
stick. Every day the dog waited in front of
his house, followed him behind his bicycle
until the main road. And when he returned from
school the dog waited for him and followed
him back till his house. The same thing
happened until he moved away. A cow, a
horse, a cat and many other birds and
animals know the people who are kind to
We are still
savage. I just watch a movie about bear
hunters who killed wild bears. At one point
he was trapped and nearly killed by the
animal he had shot before. He begged from
the animal not to kill him. Amazingly the
bear left him. The movie depicts the selfish
savage of the living men populating the
earth today. You have seen the real live
drama, Altantuya being brutally murdered and
Kevin Morais's body was dumped in a drum
full of cement.
have heard about the London Serial Killer
but not the Malaysian serial rapper. Here is
one who have served jail for 24 years in
Canada. He is sent back to Malaysia probably
to be the king of Gigolo, making more money
than being a rapper.
In a man
there resides an evil and a virtue. He can
convulse into a wicked savage, thoughtless
and wild. He can also make himself like an
angel. You may be impressed by his
countenance. If he is a politician like
Najib he will lie and cheat, gives you a
dollar and rake a hundred. He can sell his
country to save himself. And mark my words,
that Najib is the last Prime Minister of
This country. The history of Malaya will be
having a new beginning.
and wisdom of a man are rarely seen. Men
wear white masks of hypocrisy parading
artificiality of their skins. Greed rules.
They become reckless and shameless. When
they steal they justify their crime by
pointing at other thieves. Am emperor can
walk naked throughout the world proudly
displaying his bare body. Even a Haji has no
shame. The morality and goodness were
wrapped and hidden in the forgotten
compartment in one's soul.
We don't know
who to trust anymore. Everyone looks so
We have seen
so vices that we tend to
believe that the end of time is near. May
they be Christians or Muslims.
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
COST WITH FOOD
No more crab. No more restaurants for my
meals. Tonight I have a good dinner, a ham
burger with two pieces of Ramlee's meat and
two eggs dressed with salads and carrots. It
was 50 times more delicious than the MacD
stuff. I only paid RM6. If I don't cut cost
I will go mad after all I become out of
cash. I have gathered enough places where I
can get a meal for between RM3 to RM6. A
meal at Krabi Restaurant or Secret Recipe
can buy me five somewhere else.
The problem with me is that when I have
plenty in my purse, I entertained myself
with comforts and good food. I knew it was
an unnecessary wastage to buy a
crab that costs RM26 a piece only with a
little meat. Having money would lure me to
Krabi for it. For each dinner I paid about
RM45 just to satisfy my evil lust. Sometimes
I drove to Tanjung Dawai and Kuala Perlis
for the Sea-food delicacies.
What is swirling my mind is where to get 12K
to pay for my trip to the Silk Route by
April. My cutting corners would not enabled
enough accumulation. But I have a strong
faith that my loan will be honored by the
end of February. By April I hope to
recuperate from money-phobia and be at peace
of mind again.
I am planning of having a RM2.50 for
tomorrow at Majeed Nasi tomato. A plate of
rice with an egg and a glass of warm water
would cost me just that much. It will keep
me till3 pm. My tea will be a simple RM1
Cucur Kodok. And dinner will not be more
than RM6. Or I can have a RM2 Roti Jala at a
store attached to the stadium, delicious but
a little salty. Malay cooking are either too
sweet or too saltish.
The poor people has to work hard and strive
for the money. They don't have the mean to
steal or rob, nor to make law to suck from
other people. Some people get millions by
showing loyalty. Others by felling trees and
raped the forests. While the smart and the
powerful get them from feedbacks by certain
purchases, or creating government projects.
The laymen still filled the expensive
restaurants. It would have made me thinking
that every Malay is wealthy if I have not
seen them flocking the cheaper food stalls.
I won't want to marry a wife who does not
want to cook. I prefer a pious non-working
woman who would not fight with me over
having dinner at expensive restaurants.
Girls who spend their money on expensive
items too would turned me off. Whenever
someone joked with me about getting a wife,
I said that I want a poor lady, pious and
good at cooking. I told them that it is hard
to find one. Indeed, it is difficult to find
one in the modern world.
Today life is getting harder as the value of
ringgit is plunging down, pushing the price
up by more than 100% in some goods. RM50 may
be good for only 2 items. Prosperity burger
which used to be RM8 is now RM16, mackerel
is now RM15 at the wet market. It was only a
few dollars a few months ago. Government
servants and politicians do not feel the
pinch. Businessmen passed the hike to the
consumers. Rosmah lives on public fund by
the millions. Hell break loose during
Najib's period much more worst than Mahathir.
won't beg or borrow during my hard time. I
do not use credit card nor purchase things
on credits too. I don't feel too bad because
I do not owe anyone.
What is imperative in life are food and
health. As citizens we are obliged to pay
taxes and rates. We can't avoid paying water
and electricity bills as well. I will survive.
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
I feel like a
pauper living on a meager remaining pittance
in my purse. As soon as I received my last
pension ten days ago my student persistently
plead and begged me for the loan of 10K. I
departed with my savings out of my profound
pity. I withdrew RM300 and now leaving me
with only RM50 after spending it on food
consumption. Yet I made a booking to travel
to China which cost me RM12.5K.
Now I know
why people were willing to sell their souls
for money. I can't imagine how the poor
suffered from Najib's GST scheme. The pain
has to be extremely severe. No wonder BRIM
means something big to the poor recipients
and voters will accept RM50 for putting a
cross on Najib. I don't blame anyone but
myself for my present plight.
With RM50 I
can live for 2 days. I have to figure out
the best way to sustain myself for 23 more
days before my next pension fund. Probably I
get about RM120 for my RFID cards from my
old school. That can give me 5 more extra
days for consumption. My student promised me
to pay half of her loan in early February.
Can I count on that promise ?
that being broke is easy to deny any request
of financial help from anyone. I don't have
to pity anybody but myself. I very well know
that my student was not prudent with her
money and a little selfish. I tolerate her
because of her age, early 40s is considered
young to me. Her husband, also my student,
was a contractor and a big spender. They
never agree with each other on many matters.
When their business flourished I did advise
them on several matters that will ensure
them of a great future. All fell on the deaf
ears. I was close with them on their good
time, I cannot turn my back away during their
I did promise
to myself not to lend anymore money since I
was cheated by a radio friend of mine, also
a Class A contractor with lots of
properties. People can be so ruthless and
My ASB is a
reserve saving for my illness and death. I
regard it as non-existence. My total
survival is on my saving account. I have
only 2K for me to live on and for
emergencies. I cannot make it zero. I have
to cook if I have to. I have rice and dried
fish except for the gas which is near to
depletion. For a month I can survive without
eating out. Of course Maggee Mee can keep me
longer than a month but they are too bad for health.
It has been a
long time since I had been thinking of
cutting off my internet. It is the most
expensive bill I am paying now. I can go
without browsing or downloading but I need
to keep my blog going. It is however still
under consideration. It is not something
impossible to happen. Worst come to the
worst is to totally dismissed writing a blog.
After all I do not earn anything from it. So
far I have long refrained from buying and
reading newspapers or watching TV news. I
cropped my own hair and do not smoke.
Over all I
have been living a luxurious life blessed by
the Al-Mighty. In life there are ups and
downs. Poverty and hardship are not endowed
by God. It is just that we are not trying
hard enough or that we are folly enough to
be weak and gullible. Some of us are too
concern about others, sometimes at our own
I have some
American dollars in my purse. With the
current exchange rate I could get about
RM150. I will try to keep it while keeping
my fingers cross. There is always something
to hope for. We never know what.
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
Gong Xi Fa
|I did not
ask nor read anything about the Chinese New
Year. Once, a very long time ago, one of my
Chinese student who was a Christian told me
that CNY was not a religious rite. It is a
celebration imbued in Chinese culture. I
believed him then and I still believe him
now and make no effort to further my
28/01/2017, is a Chinese New Year. I expect
every Chinese of all religions to celebrate
it world wide. I would like to wish everyone
of them a very happy and prosperous new
year. Tonight the family gathers and enjoy
the grandest dinner and the firing of
crackers be heard creating more luster to
it. We don't know who plays with the
glistering fireworks. It can be from the
Malays or the Chinese or anybody at all. And
it is tough for the law to catch them. After
all it is a day of joy and happiness.
But there is
a new trend these days, that some Chinese do
not celebrate the new year at home. Instead
they go for the tour taking the holiday for
the opportunity to travel for they have been
locked in the business tasks for the whole
year. They too find a great fun in the
celebration with denizens of the places they
for the festivities is common everywhere, be
it in Malaysia or China. Bus tickets are
sold out. Train tickets are exhausted. My
daughter told me one adult and two children
tickets from Kuala Lumpur to Alor Setar has
reached 2K in price. Roads and highways are
flooded and slow down the heavy traffics. It
has always been a big celebration.
We the laymen
take the CNY as a happy and merry day. But
not the politicians. They are using it as
opportunity to gain popularity especially
the UMNO ministers who are trying to get the
Chinese support. The national media will be
highlighting these leaders more than than
the ordinary people.
greed pushed prices up before the new year.
Prawn's price increased from RM40 to RM90
per kilogram even two months before. Some
say it was not due to greed but it was the
market force of supply and demand. Big fish
and big prawn cost a fortune. Yet people
were rushing to buy and preserved them for
the big dinner.
glittering and sparkling with red, an
auspicious color that brings luck. By
today's words the color generate more energy
and power that will only attract good things
and dispelling the evil force.
Wah, the next
trip after Makasar will be on May 11 2017 to
Silk Route. But I don't have money at all
now since I finally gave a 10K to my student
who persistently appealed to pay the
salaries of her workers. I have to negotiate
with the travel agent to pay the booking fee
first and a month before the trip I will
make the full payment. The funny thing is I
still go with POTO despite my swearing not
to choose this agent anymore. It is because
I like the itinerary of the designed tour.
because I take a single room the cost will
be much higher than the others. It is 12K
It will be 12
days not including the first and the last
traveling days. The advertisements says it
is 14 days.
I don't think
it is a scenic spectacle but surely it will
different from the homeland. I will reserve
my narration before the coming trip. It is
still a long way to go.
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
YOU DIE - MAKASAR TRIP
next trip is to Makasar, Sulawesi. It was
one of the places that came under the
historical spice island, which was the
domain of the Dutch Company. Rusli, my radio
chum, bought the ticket and made all the
arrangements. The total cost is rounded up
to 1.6K. We will be staying in a luxurious
Meila hotel Makasar.
a very interesting event yesterday while
making the transfer payment to Rusli at an
ATM machine at Petronas gasoline kiosk.
There was a long queue. When it was my turn
I took quite a long time because my checking
Rusli's account number was slow and I was
asked to reenter it several time. Finally it
was all done. I collected the receipt but
forgetting about my ATM card.
I walked away
while checking the receipt. I heard several
people mentioned 'APEK...APEK.." APEK is a
name given to an old Chinese name. I used to
picture an APEK with a bulging stomach and
wearing a loose singlet. However I
turned my head to the voices. Everyone was
looking at me telling me that I did not
collect my card. I could not do anything as
the card had entered the machine.
I admit that
I am old enough. But do I look like an APEK
? It takes every sort of people to make the
As it was
only for a short trip I will only go on the
backpack. Thin and soft T-shirts would be
ample to fill in the bag. It will be light
and cozy, comfortable for traveling. After
all Air Asia only allows 7kg of hand carried
luggage. Lucky I have some extra Indonesian
Rupiah which I did not spend during my last
trip to Jakarta last year. Rp4 millions
should be more than enough. I want to use it
on good food and going sight seeing, no
souvenir and no shopping.
asked me this evening whether I have been to
all over the world. "Of course not," was my
reply. It is beyond my reach. The people in
my traveling group seemed to have an idea
that I was loaded as they were. Friends are
puzzled as from where I got the money for
all my trips.
No mind could
accept my explanation if I say they come
from God. It was my childhood dream to
travel far and wide. God just blessed me by
fulfilling my wish. Sometimes I just hear
voices saying, "Go traveling before you
die." I already feel that I am going to die
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
am glad I can still assist the college
despite my senility. I don't remember how I
came across the radio frequency card. It
came later after my biometric finger
attendance system. The card I used is the 1K
Mifare and the ones used by PLUS is the 4K
To write the
data on the card I have to study the various
sectors on the card and decide what and
where to write them. Figuring out the
procedures and writing codes needed
imagination. I was 60 plus then. My mind
deteriorated fast. What if there are numerous
data to be written on the cards ? I have to
have a database to feed into the boxes for
the transfer to the cards.
I have always
thought that educational institutions would
be able to investigate the contents of the
cards and develop their own simple software
to imprint information on the card. What if
I were to die tomorrow ?
working days instead of taking my offer to
teach biometric programming to the teachers
in the state for free, the education
department picked me up for a word
processing and Microsoft Access course. This
was a real true case. I went for the course
and enjoyed the training. It was the Kedah
education department. It wasn't that they
did not know we were running sophisticated
computer system but I guessed they were just
loved to insult people.
suggested to the institution to buy the
commercial biometric attendance system,
cheap and reliable. They should not wait for
my death before they make the changes. They
seemed to be in perplexity.
purchased 10 cards when they need 30 more
for the staffs at a price almost double I
paid for. I want them to know how difficult
it was to process the order and the market
price of the cards.
Mind you it
takes a little creativity and effort to be a
white collar criminals, invisible to detect.
In fact there are machines that can hack an
IC card and write information in. And
machines to write the card for toll road. If
the credit or the debit cards are using rfid,
the data can easily be stolen. It contains
antenna inside the card, which made it
It is good to
be old and senile. I also thank God for not
being smart or clever. Otherwise I would be
doing a lot of sinful and unlawful
many ways to assess a person. I will never
be impressed by his talk nor by his facial
countenance. Looks and words can deceive us.
I have been cheated by a person whom I have had a
very long period of close acquaintance despite
sensing his undesirable behaviors. Ladies
are quicker to expose their characters than
gentlemen. I now realize that there must
always be a limit of trust as a barrier to
save me from any vile attempt.
But I tend to
favor a certain person over the other by his
likes and preferences. A chess player, a
radio operator with excellent skill in Morse
codes, a computer programmer, a person with
distant and profound insight, a person who
walk the talk, and a few more types. I am
bored with a person with full of excuses and
telling lies to satisfy his ego.
In the era
when Morse codes is not an imperative to
qualify for the ham license you would think
everyone will be elated and will stay away
from learning the language. Surprisingly
there are people who continue and strive to
pass the test. It is not free. One has to
pay for the examination and travels a few
hundred kilometers away to sit for it. It is
a painful effort to prepare oneself to
pursue the extra skill. Surely he has to be
an extra ordinary person to have such an
passed the Morse test have stories to tell
and are ever willing to narrate them. I took
a solid one year to learn the skill,
devising my own method as there were no
computers and teachers to teach me. The dots
and dashes were provided by the telecom
department when I applied for the RAE, radio
amateur examination. These sounds were
recorded in a cassette from an oscillator I
made from the transistor radio. I also made
a recording of the ship to shore signals
which were broadcasted on the SW radio.
Using this cassette that I familiarized
myself with the shapes and characters of the
sound. I don't remember how long was my
listening period for the purpose. Only later
I relate the sounds to the characters and
kept on listening. There was no one to test
me. And I did not know my progress.
I put an effort to copy the ship to shore
until one day I find meaningful words on my
paper, about the wind and the storm
traveling at a certain knots towards a
certain direction. From then on CW was easy
young men took less than 6 months to master
It is an amazing achievement. And they too have a lot
to tell their friends about their successes.
value however drew jealousies and dejection
among some of those around them for breaking
the oath condemning CW. It takes a staunch person
to defy scorning and rejection. They are a knowledge
better than those guys.
days a determined licensed amateur
has let known his intent for the CW test and
is preparing himself for the adventure. In my assessment
his total proficiency would be procured by
June. But he is going to Putrajaya this March to try his luck. He has
attained about 87% of listening skill.
If God permits his wish will be fulfilled.
while having a dinner at a restaurant I met
another amateur licensee who expressed his
desire for the upgrading. I appreciate the
effort to enrich his personality for his own
satisfaction. It is not merely confined to
learning Morse codes. Try to attend
Japanese, Mandarin, French or Tamil classes
and enjoy the fun in learning these
languages. Go jungle tracking, mountain
climbing and back packing oversea traveling,
hitch-hiking and feel the thrills of
adventures. By a certain degree they make a
talking and bragging do not materialize
anything. A person can say he will be having
millions and billions his whole life. it
remains a dream forever. Miracles can only
happen with sweat and blood.
He has to strive and struggle. And mind
you there is no limit in what you can spout
out from our mouth. To me I look at the
tangible substance and fact in form of shape
If we want to
upgrade ourselves then we have tot work hard for the
Our King is
89 years old. Mahathir is 92. At every
prayer the Muslims seek longevity from God.
I only pray for good health so that I could
go on with my daily activities, but never
desire to live till 90 or even 80. The
longer I live the greater the sufferings. I
hate to see people are deceiving themselves
and being bullied and lied upon by the
leaders they choose. Living is getting
highly expensive. The sight of increasing
poverty and the growing unemployment of
young men are to painful for the eyes to
I heard that
Mahathir is on a few hundred ringgit tablet
each day to rejuvenate himself which is
beyond the normal person to afford. He looks
much more active and more mobile than our
King. Yet both are suffering from political
turmoil, Mahathir being directly hit while
the King's mind is disturbed. At this age
both should have a more peaceful and
tranquil life. But for most of us ageing
could be a burden to both ourselves and to
others. What could wealth do for us when our
minds are going senile, rusty and
I have a
friend, suffering from a stroke, still
speechless and bed ridden till today. His
good wife is patient enough to take good
care of him. If he had died before life for
his family would have not been so dull and
Could I be as
strong at 80 as I am now today ? It is just
9 years more. I feel the rapid deterioration
of my whole body and mind. They are catching
me fast. I have pain in my neck and soles.
My movement is slowing down. I don't want to
live till 89 or 92. I pray to God to die in
peace within any delay rather than enduring a
Najib is much
younger than me. His hair is as white as
mine. Having tons and billions of dollars he
does not seem to have an ease of mind. His
spouse, Rosmah, wants to live forever as
seen in her striving for the elixir of life.
It hard to imagine what is in her mind
because we are not in her position or in
in life is a state of mind. The happiness of
a poor man could not be different from the
happiness of a millionaire. The taste of
food may be different, the nature and the
source of entertainment and the enjoyment
may be different but the ultimate
satisfaction comes to about the same. That's
what the normal man can boast about. No
matter how great in social status a person
is his blood is never gold in color, his
ecstatic feeling is any different from any
other human of the same emotional state.
people were never sad when the elderly
passed away. I remember my religious teacher
said that our lives will be about the age of
our prophet Mohammad. Anyone who died at 60
plus is normal and natural. We would surely
be thankful to God if Najib or Rosmah would
have followed the belief of the traditional
society. They are not even 70 yet but they
have caused so much sufferings to the
people. They defy God and elevate themselves
to the level of gods and prophets.
In the midst
of the loud uproar, confusion and insanity
whoever was ever aware of his old age, that
his time to face the God Almighty to answer
for his great sins and vices, his cruelty
and despotism, his constant lies, thieveries
and vices. Such questions are mainly
realized by the simpleton, the common poor
and the mediocre in socio-economic group.
We saw women of age 60 putting up facial
make up like the Chinese opera. They think
they are young and immortal.
Look at Ku
Nan and his behavior, whether it depicts the
demeanor of any age group. Some of us ought
to be ashamed of the way we behave, act and
talk. It is better for these people to die
than live without shame, disgrace to the
race, religion and to the world.
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
SICKNESS AND MONEY
There are all
sorts of diseases and sickness common to the
people of the world. This give a wide
opportunity for people to make money by
producing drugs and supplements. The healthy
want to keep healthy and fit, to stay young,
handsome and attractive. There are creams
and operational procedures to be applied to
halt ageing, gadgets for exercises and body
buildings. We don't know how much the
products related to health and sickness
contributed to the gross domestic products.
Health insurance could be regarded as a new
What we have
here in Malaysia but unknown to the West is
the Magic Water that can protect and cure a
person from high blood pressure, stroke,
diabetes and other chronic diseases. It was
once popular among the Malays. The water was
claimed to contain verses of the holly Quran
and priced at the number of verses read into
the water. Then there were the ion water
also widely marketed among the Malays.
critically sick people tend to believe in
anything promised a cure. The opportunists
start to invents and seeks those who crave
for effective treatments. There would be
cheaters and con men, false shamans and
so-called divine healers.
Mr Chong had
spent hundreds of thousand to find a cure
for his kidney disease. They promised him a
kidney in China and every time he went for
the replacement it was not done with all
sort of reasons. He once murmured to me, "Cikgu
I have millions. But money is useless with
the sickness that I have." Money and
sickness is highly correlated with each
other. Before you die you may have to pay
RM50K to a medical center for staying in the
ICU unit. My wife had to pay about RM15K for
a week in the ward.
It is all
about money not about saving lives.
dire need and distress are gullible, may
they be in health, business or politics.
They will be swarmed by people who claim of
effective cures for money. The desperate
souls can't think straight. That's how
they fell into the trap of Ah-Long and shark
loans, freak medicine men and fake
mercenaries to save Najib Razak. There is no
sincerity to help a deplorable and weak
person but to court the money in
possessions. These are prowlers; the medical
centers, the insurances, the drug makers and
the vile politicians. God, religion and
morality are all dead to them.
care about the welfare of the society, the
community and the poor citizens ? If we care
enough we would not squeeze the unemployed,
the blind and the deaf, the old and the
dead. We show our endorsement by voting the
evil leaders and share the despicable act.
We heard that the government hospital was
almost applying the full charge on the
patients had not because of the election.
are masquerading, putting masks showing
kindness and piousness, preaching God and
kindness in the midst of unfortunate masses.
The wealthy Mac Donald, KFC and Indian
restaurants are collecting funds for the
unknown not from their own pockets. People
are devising ways to siphon from the public.
Institutions are using Arabic words for
It is very
rare that doctors would give free treatment
and scientist would go for permanent cure
even though the remedy is in their hands.
We know that
research and development and productions
incurred cost. There has to be a price tag
for everything. But ethics, morality and
civility should show some consideration and
fairness. Do we device a way for the poor
and unemployed to pay less instead of
forcing these category of society to pay 6%
more ? Do we scour the pharmacists for the
fake and the placebo ? What action do we
take on those who peddled the all-cure magic
It is time
that we should ask ourselves "Where are all
the good men go ? "
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
The lost past may be forgotten. We cannot
jump back into the splendid era of our
choice. There are sad periods that will kill
us if we bring them along. Let the sadness
Ham Radio used to be a glorious hobby that
enshrined my life. 5 pm was the time we had
to make sure we would be in our shack. It
was the time when everyone came home from
work and to have relaxation with the second
wife. Radio was known as a second wife then.
It kept husbands at home. Today the 5 pm
activity is the time to watch some beautiful
girls walking at the jogging circuit. The
thrill is chasing a pretty lady which I
always failed. She did not beat me only. The
rest of the walking men should respect and
salute her. At 6 pm I would return home and
taking my rest.
Lucky I have several other alternatives to
prudently spend my time namely reading
E-Book stories, watching You tube movies and
writing blog in addition to globe trotting
to appreciate the gifts of God to humanity,
the people and their culture, the scenic
beauty and the wonders of the world. If I
cannot bring back the grand world of ham
radio or going back to the joyous era, I
have something else to cling to.
There is no more 5 pm rush, no more carrying
the ICF 5900W when going away for courses
and meetings, no more shout of Al-Toro Ka
hing, bamboo formula, Putu Ware and Cheers
booboo. They died with time. The living old
hams seem to be missing from the earth
I have plenty of things to do and had been
talking about it for years. My radio room
requires some magic chants to clear the
mess. It may take 10 years to make it look
presentable. I don't know what to do with
tons of books. No wonder in USA some yard
sales turned out to be giving away free. And
in university campuses you can find good TV
sets, stereos and toys placed in laundry
halls with FREE notes on them.
For a long time I had been persuading myself
to cook my own lunch and dinner. If I did I
would have saved plenty of money for
something else. Who knows within 10 years I
could declare myself a millionaire. 10 short
years if I still live and breath the
fresh air. All I need is a strong mental
prowress and a forceful discipline. My
indolence seems to be greaterr than my weak
mind. Try to imagine an old man busying
himself with cooking to feed himself. At
time I wish to have a companion, not for
sexual intercourse but for chatting, cooking
and a company for traveling.
In solitude internet provides companionship.
It takes hours writing an essay, peruse the
facebook and downloading movies. I have been
watching many Chinese movies with English
sub titles, made in Taiwan, Hong Kong and
products of Communist China. The Communists
produce several propaganda films to show
their noble intents in Tibet and other
Muslim areas. Some stories on society and
the struggle of the remote people to live
are very extraordinary. Movies are kept in
the external hard disk.
I have yet another rupiah4 millions. I feel
like going to Medan to see some old
Indonesian hams which are not heard on the
band anymore. Are they experiencing the same
fate as the old hams in Malaysia ? Wait, I
will talk to Rusli about the visit and to
have an arrangement made to see the
Indonesians probably at Garuda restaurant.
Medan does not need 20kg luggage. The whole
dress needs only a small backpack.
Yes traveling is fun though it cost a lot of
money. I yearn to see the Silk Route,
pyramids and Africa. The opportunity cost
for traveling is saving to be a millionaire.
Between the two I have to choose traveling
as my days are numbered. I may go anytime
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
Food can slowly kill people. Mostly come
from the drinks we consume from the fast
food restaurants. Young men of 40s have been
devoured by diabetes from such a drink.
Consumer Association of Malaysia had shown
how much poisons they have in Coke yet none
from the government says anything about it.
When I was told that such drinks in the
Middle Eastern countries are too sweet a
sudden impulse of my mind is the Americans
and the Jews want to weaken the Arabs by
slow death. If it is a fact and you are
telling the Arabs about it, they will not
listen to you. They will rubbish it and
continue to love MacDonald. It is a human
nature. You can see on cigarette smoking,
that people still buy them despite the death
warning imprinted on the boxes.
But who is going to put cyanide in your food
? If we have war to engage and enemy to get
rid of then we have to start thinking of
this silent weapon. Pour them in the enemy
water source or in the food your enemy eats.
I just watch a Chinese movie where food
brought to a princess were suspected to
contain poison and the princess commanded
her attendance to eat them first. There are
several movies that depict similar type of
events. KGB used to kill the target by
applying cyanide to the skin.
You can read more on
for more information as to how it kills
The Malays are using SANTAU when putting
poison in your food, a traditional method of
putting illness in your body. Some could be
recovered when treated. The victims will
slowly die if they were not sure the nature
of his sickness. SANTAU is easier to make
than to get the cyanide. Ordinary people
will not be able to purchase the poison
If we are still alive till today it means
nobody wants us to die. People may hate us
but not the extend of murdering us, not even
of hurting us. There was a car salesman who
cheated his client whose finger was cut for
his crime but not the point of killing him.
We believe more on God's retribution to
taking lives by ourselves. I wouldn't poison
a person who ran away with my RM500 though
with a few thousands I may want to cut one
of his fingers, not the total length but
only a few centimeters.
A murder, a premeditated one, is an inhuman
act even for an eye to an eye a tooth for a
tooth or in war. What more if you want to
protect your self-interest, for the survival
of tour company, business or family's crime.
I am sure that those who are against the
Islamic Law (Hudud) agree with my contention
though I have reservations for my saying so.
Though poisoning is not obvious and
unsuspected God knows what we are doing. Do
you think God will forgive us for murdering
? They say Jesus forgive every criminals and
rapists and murderers.
A murderer usually asked some other people
to kill for him hoping he would not be
punished. Drunk with one success he will
continue to kill his enemies in similar
manner. He forgets God totally. By any
religious beliefs he will have to pay for
We may have been trying very hard to avoid
making enemies. A man doing a business may
be hated by his competitors. A civil servant
closed to his boss may draw jealousy from
other workers. We are more inclined to bump
with evil wherever we go. We are bound to
hurt people and likewise others are bound to
hate us as well.
We have to remind ourselves of the food we
eat, and where we eat them. People may not
put a drop of cyanide in our dish but the
food itself may contain hereditary killers,
killing you slowly and steadily.
BELIEVE SOCIAL MEDIA - THEY LIE
From the most
top to the bottom UMNO followers all are
telling us not to believe in the social
media which carries nothing but lies to
destroy the nation. The Imams of the mosques
have been conveying the same message in the
Friday prayer sermons. These days reading is
an entertainment to me. Like another
fictions most writings could be classed as
fiction as well. People buy and read them
knowing they are merely imaginative stories.
I read garbage merely to compensate my
laziness while I was a student, hoping that
I could improve my poor English. As I said
before I never passed my English.
NSTP ordered to pay Guan Eng RM300k
for 'distorted' report
discovered even the national media published
a lot of lies. NST apologized to Anwar
Ibrahim and a dead lawyer for the untruth it
Yet we are
told to believe only the Ministers and the
Prime Ministers. Whatever about Najib and
Rosmah were designed by those who
deliberately conspire to overthrow him. The
most notorious is the Sarawak Report and the
Wall Street Journal.
It would be
very stupid of me to simply believe on what
all the alternative media are saying. If
they are all lies then I want to know to
what extent people can go to tell lie as
much much to what action a person can do to
escape criminal persecution.
I expect the
Ministers like Keruak to pursue legal
procedures on those who blazoned fallacy and
fortunate that the ISP in several countries
do not allow Sarawak Report, Malaysian
Chronicles and other banned websites in
their countries. This will reduce the
damage. But it does not stop the false and
blatant news from traveling far and wide.
The court proceedings in Singapore is beyond
the control of Najib. Again Keruak and
foreign ministers have to do some glob
trotting to explain Mahathir-Soros
conspiracy to bring Najib down.
has become entertaining. I don't believe in
them but I enjoy them.
reading I began to foresee that Najib wants
to clear off the spooky 1Mdb that has been
tormenting him for some time now. He is to
close the strategic development body and to
pay off the debt once and for all. That's where
the CCCC comes in, promising to resolve the
critical and scandalous issue.
I would love
this part of the plan as far as 1 mdb is
concerned. We would be released from the
heavy burden of paying high interest rate for
nothing. I also think China would cover back
the massive lost of SRC's money. The rest is
left to the propaganda unit to boost up Najib's
popularity with high spinning before the
general election. At all cost Najib wants to
stay in power.
happens we can say that half of the painful
problem is solved. The other part is about
the money that found their ways into Najib's
account, about the thievery and other
criminal acts relating to the cash. Though he has
all the resources at hand to fight for his freedom,
the money to bribe the citizens, and the art of
a sure winning in the general election, he
will find it tough to completely buried the
of sleeping with China
seems to be fine to him. He is so sure that things
would be return to normal and the trouble
would be over. Would they ?
clairvoyance is right and my believe that whatever Najib's
touches turned to be mud by the force of the dark
side of his spouse then only God knows what
else is coming and hovering our nation. Altantuya's ghost continues
to haunt. Najadi's spirit is visiting
Majib's home. And who knows what the CCCC
could do to Najib.
The Malays are not too
clever to forecast the future. They do not
perceived the concept of 'prevention is
better than cure'. They can't imagine
a Malay idiom 'bila nasi sudah menjadi bubur'
(the spoil that cannot be undone). They love
to indulge themselves in the game of
gambling which is alien to them. They have
been losing billions by their dire
foolishness, one after another in a quick
succession within a short period of time.
They have PHD guys in their team, the half
baked and myopic legal advisors who appeal
to their emotion rather than their brain and
the brainless hooligan ready for the kill.
Yet they fail to predict the outcome of
Najib's 1MDB solution.
It was not
that they had not been warned before. I
remember well about the protest when Isa was
given the task to take care of FELDA and the
creation of FGV. The honest critics were hit
back and Najib proceed with his decision.
The money lost cannot be recovered. The
missing payment to IPIC evaporate into the
thin air. Even after China's bail out the
lost will be gone forever.
It is not
that we pray for the disaster to strike our
nation. But we should not be allowed go on
with a sheer crazy wastage. Najib has to
always remember that he is running a country
not a home. He must not make decisions by
himself or just listen to his spouse or Jho
Lo. He must not let himself be pulled by the
nose by MCA, Gerakan or A few con men.
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
REMINISCENCE OF MY PAST
design their own fate and want it that way.
I too try to design my own but leave to God
for the rest. I think God answers to
everyone's call, fulfilling their needs and
desires. Then they should not blame God for
the outcomes in their lives. When I leave to
God to decide, I have to accept all the
providence whether they are sweet or bitter.
At this age I only keep the sweet fragrance
in my memory.
I was at my
old school this morning giving the RFID
cards which I have entered the data. I met
my old student who was in charge of an IT
department in her office, also using the
finger print attendance system. I did not
demonstrate the system we use in the school.
I knew if she were to see it she would be
amaze and would recommend the system to her
boss. I do not want to do anything anymore
with computing except for the minor help
that would not tax my time and energy. There
wasn't much thing transpired out of our
happy conversation. She just recalled the
nicest ever experience she had while
exciting conversation was with my former
financial clerk while on the way out of the
administrator's office. Norhashimah accosted
me, "I have not seen you for a long time. I
thought you are married."
I pulled a big
"You have a lot of money in your ASB.
Go and get married."
"Me having big money ?
"Why not. There a man I met yesterday
getting a dividend of RM100K."
man. I don't even get RM10K," I replied.
"Go and look one for me," said I.
am going home. Let me know
if you have one for me."
quickly. You have money." she said while I
was moving away.
I was excited
because she was so concern about me getting
a spouse. But how could she thought I have
so much money. She didn't know that more
than half of my pension procurement was
given to my late wife for her ASB saving. I
get the less of her bequest because of the
error made by the government agency.
It was not me
who carved my total fate. My marriage status
and financial position were not under my
control. I would not know when and where I
will get a wife and where I will be
interred. And whether my programming
activities will vanish altogether with me.
It did amaze
me when a man can get a dividend of 100K
from his ASB. I would probably be like him
if I were to start my saving at the same
time when the scheme was setup. I started
very much later with 15K and never to add to
the amount. On it's mature date many years
later the final amount became 80K. That man
investment began with the beginning of ASB.
At least I
have seen what will become of me in my
remaining years. I do think of moving away
to somewhere I can be alone until I die.
That's the predestination that only God
knows. I can be certain that I can never
dream of getting the 100K dividend not even
has changed a lot. There are new faces whom
I do not recognize. Norhashimah was the only
clerk left after I retired. Eighty percent
of the teachers are new. They do not know
who developed the biometric attendance
combined with the RFID cards system that
speaks, wishing birthdays and mentioned
names of the staffs that locked in.
The name is
changed to vocational college with lower
quality students. There is no additional
mathematics and lesser practical classes.
The students do not sit for SPM public
examination. Just imagine their entry level
into the local universities with only SRP
certificates. To me it is a mad education
system under the prime Minister Najib Razak.
Things are getting mad.
I do not
visit my old school without reason anymore,
unlike before when I thought there were
still sanity in the system and the
environment. The beauty and the aesthetic
values were totally plundered. The old glory
and it's luster fail to shine. It has become
an obstinate system which has betrayed the
low achievers in the yester years. If you
want to call it fate then call it as one. It
is a fate by a poor design by people who
cast the philosophy of life away. They are
governed by their ego and selfishness.
student was recalling of the beautiful days,
I told her that she will never ever find it
anywhere else in no other time. It is really
an untold story, the greatness that were not
known but by the students and teachers of
the time. It was a divine gift, a real
heavenly earth of joy, happiness and
greatest student's achievements. I still
keep records of student from 1986 to 2000
and could be perused from this web page.
The past has
passed. It is dead and will never
recuperate. It is the present and the future
we should be concern of. What would become
of me and what would become of the people
and the country ?
It was only
yesterday that the monthly maid that I hired
to clean my house told me not to get too old
a lady for a spouse because instead of she
looking after me, I may be looking and
taking care of her. They recommended a lady
between 40 to 45. They were joking but their
thoughts are worth looking at. To them a
spouse to me is just my nurse, attending my
It is not
that I don't know what to do with time I
have. I downloaded movies, watching them,
erasing files on my MacBook to free space
for my movie work, attending Facebook and
Whatapp, going for my evening walk, writing
blog, searching for places to have my dinner
and today I prepare to make 6 key chains for
tomorrow. Life is still meaningful despite
the bleak future.
As I have
said that I am not a total fatalist. I chose
to have my future carved by me but leaving
everything to God to decide my fate. But
politicians exploit religion for their own
benefit, playing around with God's words.
UMNO is telling the citizens to accept
hardship, sufferings and misfortune because
they are destined by God. Mahyuddin was
sacked by God not Najib. The declining of
the riggit is what God wish, not the
doing of the finance minister. The SRC money
and the 2.6 billions that went into Najib's
account too were determined by God. So were
Mussolini, Hitler and Polpot who were chosen
by God ?
Chinese jogging companion said to me, "We
don't steal. We don't rob. We don't hurt
people. Our minds are clear."
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
OF THE NATIVES
The Malaysian native has been here in the
jungle long even before Parameswara. They
had been practicing shifting agriculture and
survived through hunting and food gathering.
When the sultanate took shapes and
traditional governments were formed the
natives continue to live as they were. Like
all other natives of the world the land
where they stay generally belonged to all
who have been living there. They have no
grant of lots, boundaries or ownership
When savages encroached the free land they
killed and murdered the natives, claimed
ownerships of the lands and continents. The
took North America and Australia, and South
America. The early Portuguese, Dutch and the
British in our region were more interested
in the maritime area rather than the
hinterland. The natives were left untouched.
Decades later, the British after
intervention, took interest on the
indigenous natives, aiding them and left
them with their lives.
into the affairs of the Orang Asli by
British colonial government was followed
with the view of the British colonialists
that the Orang Asli should remain in
isolation from the rest of the population
but should also be
given protection. Subsequently, the colonial
government called for the establishment of
large aboriginal land reservations where the
Orang Asli would be free to live according
to their own tradition,."(Paternalistic
approach towards the Orang Asli in Malaysia:
Tracing its origin and justifications
Rohaida Nordin1 , Matthew Albert Witbrodt1 ,
Muhamad Sayuti Hassan@Yahya2 )
It was in the later years when crooks and
the underworld penetrated and become parts
of the government the plunder of the land
begun. The crooks seek the favor of the
powerful warlord politicians and agreed to
make these politicians the chief and the
owner, pouring tons of money from the profit
gained. The jungles were raped threatening
men who live there and wild animals.
Now they are telling the natives, the
traditional people who have been in the land
for as long as even Malayan sultanate was
formed, that the natives live on the
government land illegally. It is from the
loud voice of a Malay race, an Islam as
their religion. They flashed the law codes
and statutes and arrogantly telling these
people 'the law of the land'.
Neither the Malay nor the British government
has the absolute divine right to declare
which land belongs to whom.
The legality of the border is superficial.
It is valid through acceptance and respect.
If it is not accepted and recognized then
the claim of ownership is useless. If the
United States were to stay in Pekan and
tells us 'who says this is your country ?' what can we do ?
The land, the sea, the water, the air and
the sun belongs to God. The delineation
authority is given by the power of guns. The
Isreal-Palestinie case is classic enough to
portray the right of land ownership. Israel
claims the ownership just base on the holly
book that says Judea and Samaria belong to
the race of the Israelites and they successfully
grabbed it by the force of arms.
If the Orang Asli has a superior military
forces or backed by any world military power
would the UMNO man dare to tell the natives
that they are staying on the government land
? And we ourselves right now do not
recognize law and regulations made by the
government. In our civil life rules are made
for fairness just and for the welfare of the
majority, not to rob, suppress or to evict
people out of their homes.
The savage in human form march on to rob and
plunder under various pretext such as 'for
economic development', 'for high income',
'for the betterment of the people' pushing
the scheme into the law approved by the
greedy and insatiable politicians.
All they care is for themselves. To them God
is dead and they are the most powerful and
invincible people on earth.
remarks and comments about Israel is not
from the religious point of view. I write as
what I see and drive conclusions as they
could have happened by the events. The
sentiments towards this country could be
seen from the very few questions thrown on
me; are you not scared to be in Israel ? Do
your hear machine guns ? Did the fire burn
the Jewish nation ?
entered Israel we were warned not to snap
any picture in the country by the Jordan
tour guide, Khalid. The entry point was
Kuruk. We were on the bus while Khalid was
managing our passport. After the Jordan
immigration checkpoint our bus moved to the
Israel immigration point about a few hundred
two immigration counters to look at our
passports. The queue was long. There were 42
persons in our group. In the first counter
there were two officers. Eight of us
completed both counters with ease. Then
there was a long delay. About 25 minutes
later the officer on the right seemed to get
mad. He was shouting about the name was not
in the system. There were perplexities. We
waited with calm. The man collected a few
passports from us including mine. A few
minutes later my name was called. The
officer looked at me and I looked at him
with a smile. I passed both counters and
proceed to the waiting bus.
The rest were
still inside. For more than two hours nobody
was out. We were getting worried. The
temperature was not as severe as in Jordan.
I was donning only a T-Shirt. After about
three hours later the whole bunch were seen
coming out of
immigration office. Everyone felt very
relief. The bus started to move, a new bus
with a new driver and tour leader having the
same name as the previous one. That was the
first time I saw Palestinians in Israel. The
city of Jericho is not as organized as Alor
Setar or Sungai Patani. Shop names were
written in Arabic. I wouldn't know how many
people on the streets were Jews or
Paletinians. And at the restaurant where we
had our lunch too I could not recognize
between the two.
we went to Jurusalem where I started to see
roads and signboards were in Hebrew. We
stopped on the hill taking pictures of the
view of the sacred mosque Al-Aqsa. The air
started to become chilly as the breeze was
getting stronger. Jurusalem is a well
constructed city with trees and good roads.
There are Muslims, Christians and Jews. To
me it looks like a peaceful city.
After a few
visits to historical places we checked in
into our hotel. I don't know whether it
belongs to a Jew or a Muslim.
the writing was in Arabic.
worshipped area where there were Orthodox
church, the wailing wall and the Al-Aqsa
mosques are within a high wall. It is a big
area. And the Aqsa mosque is also within a
wall. There are gates to enter each of the
wall. At each of the gates entering the
mosque there are Israel security forces to
ensure the safety of worshippers. At one
time a guard asked me whether I was a
Muslim. I guessed that the non-Muslims are
not allowed into the holy primises.
not a single mosque with a yellow dome. It
is an area within the wall. There are a few
mosque visible to the eyes. And there are
mosque beneath the earth surface. As a
Muslim it amazed me.
There was no
bitter encounter with any Israel or the
Israelis. When we walked pass the wailing
wall I smiled at a Jewish woman standing
there, she smiled back. There was no
harassment by the normal Jews nor the
security forces. It was just like any other
places and countries of the world we have
visited before. Nobody felt threatened nor
having any fear. The streets were safe
compared with the streets in Kuala Lumpur.
On Sunday we
entered the Orthodox church. It was fairly
dark. Te worshippers were praying. I had
never seen Christian prayed in such a way
before in my life.
cities are not as busy and crowded as Kuala
Lumpur or Hong Kong. Probably people were at
were not in the war zone, deafened by loud
sounds of bomb and machine guns. You can't
even see the
invincible defense system, the
dome, the powerful Israel army or the
powerful sophisticated war planes.
remember the fire in Haifa which Malaysians
were thinking the whole of Israel was
devoured by a great fire from the sky. Half
of the Muslim world were overjoyed saying
God has punished the cruel Jews.
We have been
fed with false news and information. The
city of Haifa was untouched, standing
elegantly with pride. It is a beautiful
city. The fire was far up in the hill side.
In this city the people of the three
religious group live in unity and
peacefully. We had our lunch in a Jewish
restaurant. The food was fantastic.
I am not
praising Israel. How could I say Haifa was
ruined by fire when I saw it otherwise. If
the city is clean I have to say it is clean.
I do not know what's in the hearts of it's
We slept in a
Jewish hotel not far from the Sea Of
Galilee. This is a religious lake mentioned
by the Muslims and the Christians. The
Muslims say at the end of time the lake will
be dry. We were told that the water level
has lost it's height by a few inches.
anyone brough Israel's Shakel. So everyone
bought souvenirs with US dollars. A small
cup of coffee costs USD4. It looks like it
standard price in both Jordan and Israel.
The boat we were in flew both Malaysian and
Israel's flags. Negara Ku was played at the
Our visit to
Tel Aviv, Haifa and other parts of Israel
was not merely to see the land of Israel but
to visit the various historical mosques. We
were also taken to Yardinet where the
Christians can wash their sins away. I am
not sure whether the Jews could do the same.
The water at this Baptismal place is said to
be holy. They are sold in bottles. To me
this place is a tourist attraction and the
money making machine.
Jordan the roads and highways in Israel are
much better. It is as good as our highway
except they that they are free to use across the
country. There is no toll to reap money from
There seem to
be a balance between industries and
agriculture. No land is wasted. Foodstuffs
are grown on a large scale for own
consumption as well as for export. Nets are
used as shades. I saw several small tractors
at banana plantation. Remember when Israel
returned the conquered land to Egypt the
bare desert was completely transformed to
agriculture and as a tourist attractions.
There were fruits, buildings and hotels ?
We went to
Palestine, Hebron and the West Bank and
other Muslim areas. Funny we need to go
through Israel border. I felt I was in
Israel all the time and did not realize I
was in the Palestinian sphere.
In your mind,
picture the Palestinians and the Muslims are
living in refugee camps. You will be
surprise to see shop houses and cars within
their premises. They run businesses. I would
not know as to the level of their poverty. I
may be wrong to say there are plenty of
wealthy Muslims. I even felt the money we
donate for the Palestinians were scams. At
one place where the bus stop, a young man
went up the bus asking for donation for the
school. Looking at the social environment I
concluded the people in the area could
manage themselves and the education of their
informed that the refugee camp was on the
other side of the West Bank. We were not
taken even near to the vicinity.
I don't know
are there in Tel-Aviv or Haifa. There could
be a few in the Israel security forces and
the police as well as in the public office.
Again I may be wrong.
There were no
Jews staring at us showing contempt,
distrust or hostility. As I have said before
that you are safer in Tel-Aviv or Haifa than
in Kuala Lumpur.
briefly I can say about Israel that we
is repulsive about the Jews is the Talmud.
Many of us might think they are holding
mainly to the old Torah. Talmud regards the
non-Jews as animals. They can be killed or
to serve the Jews. If the military who went
to war with the Palestine were brainwashed
by the Talmud they would even shoot the
defenseless women and children.
Not all the
famous Jews were devoted to their religion.
Many were atheists and Communists. The Great
Einstein was a Jew. So were the early
leaders of the Communists. Some of the young
Jews in Israel even believe in Karma and
Israel is trying to open the country to the
world, to erase the dark image of genocidal
Sharon who murdered thousands of
Palestinians. It is not enough for Natenyahu
to declare that Israel is the best model of
a democratic country to be followed by all
when he does not care to enhance cordial
relationship with the Palestinians and give
them equal shares in economy and public
Everyman has the right to
live, may he be a Chinese, a Malay, a Jew or
a Palestinian. He has a right to form a
community of people of the same interests,
beliefs and culture, and practice them as he
wishes. But born in them are characteristics
of greed, selfishness, insatiable lusts,
jealousy, hatred, savageness and other
hideous emotional ingredients. With power in
hand instead of creating a harmonious, happy
and wealthy society, he uses it to suppress
and oppress the weaker ones, rob and murder
recklessly. May he be Najib or Aerial
the Muslims say Jews are sinners. If they
are so it is not to the Muslims to play God.
Leave everything to God to deal with them. I
think the Israelis do not rob from their own
people or cause great hardship to their
citizens. To look from the human point of
view Najib is much worst than Natenyahu. The
former sells the Malays and the country away
and the later fought hard for the right of
the Israelis to live.
must meet the head of the Palestinians and
cordially negotiate peaceful co-existence,
sharing the economy, agriculture, education
and agreeing in the mutual respect of each
other's culture. The right to live of the
Israelis must coincides the right to live of
the Palestinians. Let resources be fully
utilized for the benefit of all instead of
wasting them into bullets and bombs.
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
I thought I
had call it a quit. I don't have much energy
left and ageing is catching on at a fast
rate. I am already 71, the age that
horrified young girls and women, deemed
useless and senile by those who happen to
look at me. People wanted to help me
crossing the road and constantly reminding
me to be careful and not to forget this and
that. Indeed, I find resting is comfortable.
I can dream fairy tales and build the castle
in the air without any limit and rules to
younger men think if I were to tell them I
programmed the rfid card and biometric
finger system ? They would be thinking I am
a nut with some mental problem. Old people
are desolated groups. I realize that and
decided to abandon further research and
development on modern programming languages
and methodology. And stop programming. I
bought the e-prom programmer. The unit was
shoved at the remote corner of my shack.
I would hope
that those using the system I developed for
them will never bother me again. I know the
owner of a car workshop is actively using it
for more than 6 or 7 years and the biometric
attendance had given the good service for
more than 10 years. I never make a living
through selling softwares. There is no
permanent renumeration, no contract. I was
as happy as a lark as there wasn't anybody
approach me for troubleshooting.
When I was in
Jordan the school called me saying the
program could not retain data once the
machine was turned off, insinuating the
fault was due to the program. It was just
like callimg for a dead man to rise up to
fix the problem. The machine keeps all the
previous data year by year for perusal at
the current time. It keeps all records of
leaves, wishing birtdays, and telling the
staffs not to be late of any late arrival
with a vivid voice. If one were to use the
card to flash one's attendance a picture
will be recorded by the camera.
I hate to think about it anymore. I informed
the school it could be either due to human
intervention or a form of vicious virus. Yet
I went to attend the machine once I came
back from my trip. As I discovered it was
locked I decided not to do anything anymore.
If it needs to be abandoned then the school
will have to buy a commercial China made
product to replace it.
Later I was
informed the computer technician had locked
school rang me up requesting new rfid cards
for new teachers. I have only 30 cards left.
I could not contact the supplier anymore. I
don't intend to order additional units
because they are costly as the value of our
ringgit has declined far down. I lost money
by programming the cards because many of
them were given free. I spent about RM2K for
the cards alone.
I am too
tired now. I told the school to buy their
own cards. At least they will know the cost
and the tough experience in the procurement.
I will write the cards for a price. It is a
charge for awakening a dead man to work, but
only a ringgit or two.
consider looking after their desired systems
if they are willing to pay me a meager
monthly salary of just RM500 which they
won't. And I don't intend to mention about
it. I prefer to be free and enjoy my
remaining few years in ways that do not
taxed and pressured my rusty brain. People
like us could no more contribute to the
community. We should be at home and wait for
our death. Else we go to the old folks
center, meeting friends and pass our time.
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
A LITTLE ON
Rarely I would scan on 40 meter band,
sometimes once in a week and sometimes once
in a month. It wasn't like the 70's and the
'80s when after office hours we would hear
gay and hilarious voices of a few groups of
Malaysian hams on several frequencies. There
were no day of total
quietness. The joyous chats continued even
after midnight. Today very rarely also I
came across a few guys having themselves
occupied. May be they are there but at
Old hams are totally vanished. Some passed
away. Some migrate. Some surrendered
their tickets. And some are missing without
trace, reasons or news. It is unthinkable
ham who has been active for 40 years to
detach himself completely from the
hobby. Once I thought the radio addiction is
not be removed till death arrive. I remember old boy Chow,
to me,"Ham radio is in my blood."
But he too
There are more than 25000 hams now. Before, only about 300. We would expect the
buzzing on the air band of voices
from the new Malaysian radio operators on
each day of the week. It
just didn't happen. I
was lucky to be a part of the merry hams in
those glorious era.
Since it's death, there is no incentive at
all to make any
attempt to woo back the living old chums. The
new world is just so very different, beyond
description. It does not fit the old dogs
The new amateur operators excel in the setup
of the radio stations and activities. Tall
towers popped up everywhere with
sophisticated antenna system while a big
majority of the local old hams were on the
archaic dipole. Eshee , 9M2FK, had a tower of only
50' high only. Mals's Yagi could be touched
by a slight hop. Mine was a 35' bamboo.
Shure mic was a symbol of one's status, owned by
one or two guys sophisticated hams. There was only one repeater
at Ulu Kali for people in Kuala Lumpur.
And there had been only one radio society then,
MARTS, Today only heaven knows how many clubs and
societies with all sort of activities.
Experts are everywhere with colossal
knowledge and skill.
There is an untold stories of progress in technology
in the modern time.
People play with the new gadgets. Names like
the Rasberry-Pie is an alien to me and will
be so indefinitely. There are SDR radios
with extremely new concepts. Morse codes are
sent and read through computers. And there
are many more that my mind cannot grasp. The
old rusty people are too weak to chase them.
There has been a quantum leap while ours is
at a tortoise's phase.
How about the old hams somewhere else in the
world ? I don't know. Probably some might
find themselves out of date too and cannot
cope up with the new world. The old and the
senile awaits for his time to go. For a
little time I take my joy in smart phone
facilities and traveling. But I keep ham
radio a company by listening to Morse codes
installed in my Android.
Anything about the the present world is not
for us the old hams to tell. Only the new
generations can tell and comprehend. I never
asked anyone who encountered with me about
the current situation or events. If they
were to mumble anything I would have just
listened and then forget. The passion with
ham radio is not the passion with men behind
them. Any narration about the men behind it
is just an apparition, a shadow that comes
and goes. Many stories do not surprise me. I
just laugh them off. It takes a vision to
see the unknown and beyond.
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
A DAY OF
It is a day
of damn frustration, It isn't half a day
yet. I already feel exhausted. May be early
in the evening I'll go to Maxis center to
find out why they keep on sending me bill
after I quit this Telco for over a month and
had faithfully paid the last payment. It was
quite early that I went to pay rates at the
city counselor. There were already crowds in
the office. 99% of them were Chinese. The
early birds were given gifts, a nice and
elegant looking tumbler. I got a couple for
the two bills I paid for.
Then I rushed
to the main post office to have my ASB book
updated. Again there were big crowds
queuing. Those who were withdrawing and
updating were not separated. I have to wait
for 40 people before my turn. It took about
30 minutes of waiting. The updating was
quick. Te withdrawing would take much more
longer. I would say 90% of the customers
before me were withdrawing their dividends.
I look at my dividend with awe. It is
dipping down. I keep my composure with
cursing heart at Najib who is enjoying his
family vacation with taxpayers money.
thing is to settle my land rate. Driving to
the land office took me about 10 minutes.
There was no crowd because the land office
have not send out the bill. I was quickly
attended. My usual bill was RM100. The new
rate is RM189, an increase of 89%. I paid
without asking question because I know the
Chief Minister has not sit even for his
school certificate and he is just like Najib,
a Pei Shu, that eats without excretion.
Money is never enough.
Jose said that the Malays are the generation
of the pirates. Our Tengku banned him from
Malaya. We said that Drakes too was a great
pirate knighted by the Queen of England for
plundering Spanish galleons for gold. If the
English were the generations of pirates are
we not ? We are worst off because we rob our
own people. Just look at Bashah's face
carefully and examine in detail. You won't
believe your eyes. he looks like one of
I pay to the
city administrator at a high rate, almost
rm400 but I am very satisfied with the
service the city has given. Our area is very
well kept; grass cut, drains are free of
clog, and garbage cleared. And every time an
early payment is made the city counsel tend
to give you something of good value. It does
not behave like a gangster or a pirate.
I have yet to
hear from MAXIS why they keep me sending the
bill. It is a company of the state of the
art technology, employing sophisticated
computer programmer. Don't tell me it is
also a part of the robbing team attached to
the rest of marauders.
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
DON'T MAKE ME WORRY
I have a few
more years to live. Lately a lot of people
were telling me of their sad and sorrow
stories. Majority lamented on their being
broke. One even approached me for loan of
200K. It is not a joke. My God, do they think I am a wealthy
man having that kind of money which I have
never dream of to have in my whole life. It
is true that I have three cars but they are
very old and dented. They are worth less
than RM500 a piece. It is true that I have
been doing a lot of traveling but I
sacrificed my daily consumptions to save for the trips.
It hurts when
I hear their sad stories. They were truly as striked by misfortunes, being laid
off from work and a few from their own
stupidity. I have narrated about the person
who asked me for the 200K loan in my
previous articles. It was the story of he
and she, husband and wife, whom I had given
20K before but having to time to lend me 20
minutes of their time to send me to the
railway station, 10 minutes each way, and no
time to pick me up from the airport when I
returned home from the Spain-Morocco trip.
It was after the loan affair mind you.
stories however made me sad. I pity them and get
worried over the matter. At my age I still worry about
people's plight and mishaps.
I have to
remind myself, always, that I am no longer
young and able. I have myself. I cannot
solve problem for the others. Each person
has his own job to do. They need to solve
their own quandary. With a little time left,
I might as well do the best to please
myself. I had taken care of my sick and bed
ridden wife for more than 10 years single
handed, nursing her until I got a maid. It
was not a burden. It was a mission of love
to service her. When she left me I thought I
could be free and alone for sometimes, to
rest and to have a peace of mind.
people you help would appreciate what you
are doing to them.
yesterday I met a rich and wealthy
contractor who owed me RM500. He disappeared
from me after I handed him the loan, ignore
my SMS and phone call a year later. He
accosted me and asked me to sit beside him.
I ignored him. If he had wanted to repay the
loan he would have come to my house. If he
was honest he would have answered my call.
It is really amazing, something beyond logic
and simply incomprehensible. There is no
morality, ethics no shame.
to show their care when I was working and
forget me after retirement. When I was in
difficulty and sick nobody helped me. I
nursed myself and bore the problem on my
own. I do not borrow from anyone or any
company. "I cut the cloth to fit my body" is
a proverb that guides me in my life; no
extravagance, no lavishness, and no wastage.
were not dumb. They parade their smartness
in their glib words and elegant deeds. A few showed
pomposity. They were too smart to follow
I know the
200K guys are worried. There is no trade
offered, no collateral nor share in their
business. They only asked for the loan with
verbal agreement. I wish I could help them
only if I have that much.
I have sum
money saved for over 40 years of my active
life. It is just enough to give me some fine
time and comfort before I die. I want to see
some part of the world that I have never
been before. It is not the moon or the
Artic, not the top of the Himalayas or the
bottom of the sea. It is just to some
historical and scenic places around and less
hectic to travel. I also want to taste good
and delicious foods, sleep in a quaint hotel
and a soft bed.
torment you with their problems they are in
fact trying to kill you. I am no more a
young man with a strong heart. I have to
monitor my BP and blood sugar level, keeping
fit by daily evening walk. I can drop down
anytime and anywhere. Please don't make me
worry. Let my brainwave travels far and wide
enriching friends and families. Let God
gives me strength, will power and happiness.
And let God show them ways to free them from
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF
DO YOU SEE IN THE NEW YEAR ?
The new year begins with a crude comment.
While our Prime said that the Western
countries are jealous at our economic growth
and he is enjoying a family vacation using
the government jet in Australia, motorists
are queuing up the petrol kiosks to save a
few ringgit at the further rising fuel cost,
the ringgit continue to flung, ASB dividend
was at the lowest and the prices of foods
and commodities keep on spiraling. And how
true is Najib selling Malaysia to China ?
There is a bleak and gloomy years to come.
The debts are rising. The Chinese companies
are coming. The taxing will get tougher.
Unemployment continues to grow. Money
continue to lose their way.
There are two men who put us in bad times; Mahathir and Najib. One has earned the
punishment and the other is waiting. The bad
time of Mahathir was not as the bad time of
Najib. Najib is a man who does not care
about his Malay race and about the
Malaysians as a whole. His days will come.
The retribution will be very severe.
To Najib there is no about turn. "We will
prosper or die together" and moves ahead in
destroying the nation. 2017 and the coming
years are not the era of joy and prosperity.
Many would be displaced and suffer. But life
has to go on.
But when I was young already in my thought
that future is not always brighter. I
fantasize a hard life, living as vagabond,
poverty and destitute. I made preparation to
face the unknown. And survive. I have about
5 more years to live. Millions of others
have many long years to suffer. We can be
sure the sinners will be burnt by the hell
fire. With God's permission we will see them
yelling and wailing in hell.
ABDUL RAHMAN RAOF