HAPPINESS AND SADNESS
Today I should be happy on several matters but
sadness also clings onto me when my daughter said
she is quitting her job. She told me that she could
not stand the pressure. It saddened me as she is a
single mother looking after her 8 and 9 year old
kids. She and my other kids had never listen to my
advice and had barred me from interfering in their
choice of jobs. It saddened me very much but that's
life that we all have to face. I am not rich enough
to help them financially, only ample for myself.
What I am happy today is I am able to fulfil the
promise I made to my student. I banked in RM650 to
boost her economy, the amount she never dream of
getting from other people. Of course it is up to her
to build or sink herself. If she doesn't do as what
she said she wants to do then only God can help her.
Secondly I went to the insolvency office to make
enquiry about her payment to the department. They
told me to ask her to present herself. She has been
paying for the house her late husband bought by bank
loan, the house and the bank she knows not. The
department might be able to resolve her problem as
the bank had sold the house. She was told about it
by her relatives.
my work were done. I feel glad that I have done my
deeds to my poor student. In the past I have a
student who is a lecturer who seek loan from me.
Instead I gave him as donation. When he asked me
again at another time, I gave him a long lecture.
And the DHL Office Alor Setar rang me up while I was
driving saying all the documents have been submitted
to the custom office and waiting for custom's
clearance. I am certain I will receive my goods
tomorrow by the latest.
Sadness and happiness are common occurrences in
life. They will die when we die.
also shed my tears when my girlfriend choose to
leave me. It is something that I cannot force on
people including my own siblings. It hurts as I have
been hurt by my own kind before. I won't blame God
for the happenings. I have just to bear with life
and be strong.
Abdul Rahman Raof
WHAT DO YOU GAIN FROM BEING HONEST ?
am not the type who will be hunting for people's
businesses and affairs, to know their vices and
filthy habits. I just bumped into them and realized
about them when they inflicted mental or emotional
injury on me, or they created doubts by their habits
and actions. You can tell me so and so is bad and
cannot be trusted but I will not instantly take your
account into truth. I will just be careful and
observe the person.
That was always happen when I was the Head of an
institution where one worker will be telling me
about another with all sorts of stories. I remember
a saying "to know a person listen to what he said
about other people". One man who told me not to
trust another man, ran away with my money himself.
bumped into scammers who were trying to illicit
money from me. I read thousands of news of people
being conned on going for pilgrimage who were
stranded, the about buyers being cheated by the
online sellers and more events that razed the
But truth hurt. People still love to hear lies as
long as lies can make them happy. I know of people
who smiles in front of you and stabs your back to
rid of you.
I have before that I am not an angel and never a
perfect or near to perfection individual. As far as
I can remember, I don't tell lie and I am honest. I
have a strong principle. Yes I met people who are
like me, several of them at my work place.
What do you gain from being honest ?
People tend to exploit an honest man. And they will
be victims if they are employees who talk the truth
of their offices and their bosses. They may even be
transferred or sacked. Of course it would be silly
of you to accept for any of the ill consequences
that befell you if you are not economically secured
or wealthy. For the sake of survival people have to
man of principle must be independent and strong
enough. Only then he will reap the fruit of being
honest and sincere. It is happiness, fulfilment and
satisfaction. You can walk with your head high
ignoring whatever others think about you.
Abdul Rahman Raof
DRIVING NOW ?
Five years ago I would drive to distant places
without much ado. I was already about 67 then, no
more a young man. It has never been a dreaded idea
to think of Taiping or Penang. The reason was I
always have a company, my sick wife. Though bed
ridden, I still carried her along with the help of
the sliding board and a wheel chair. I realized then
it was not age but the boredom of driving a long
I am forced to go to Penang tomorrow or day after
tomorrow then I will have to do it. I have to plan
well so that I will be on time to having the fish
head curry at Sungai Dua junction. I think my job
will be done by 3.00 pm and will drive back slowly
and will take rest some rest and have a short nap.
Probably by 6pm I will arrived home.
have a radio in my car. But I have never been
interested to listen to the broadcast station.
Instead I only appreciate the beauty of nature
around me and go into a deep imagination of it's
spectacles if I were to put them in my video clips
caught over the air. On the way back I may not
follow the highway but using the old road. The
traffics will be much slower.
The other day I drove to Gurun to investigate a food
outlet. Gurun is just about 22 miles away or one
hour away. I did not consider it too far. And prior
to that day I drove about 18 miles to make a drone
capture of the scenery. 18 miles is nearer than
Kuala Perlis where I always drove alone for dinner.
You may ask whether I do not have any friend to
accompany me. I do prefer to bring the whole family.
Not everyone wants to go with family. The men are
too pious and spent their time in God's house. They
are as old or older than me. Not all of them are
energetic. I took a risk for the good sea food,
driving at night on both ways from Alor Setar to
Kuala Perlis and back.
Now I have to rely on my mood whether to drive to
distant places or not. A few years ago I went to
Kota Bharu alone. While having a meal a young man
came to ask for a seat on to share the table. After
chatting he advised me not to drive alone. It was
dangerous at my age. What he did not know was I was
more afraid of his health than mine. Old man can die
anytime. I already placed in my mind of going to the
East Coast up to Trengganu and bring my Apple
Mac along to send video clips to the Youtube. I may
even go to Pulau Kapas bringing my drone along.
I were to it, it means I will resurrect my past,
exploring the land created by God.
Abdul Rahman Raof
OUT OF 10 I MET ARE DISHONEST, CHEATERS, STUPID OR
met with women. On the outside they look nice, soft
spoken, smiling faces and beautiful. So were men.
discovered some were liars even on the first day.
These were Indonesian women, the house maids. They
will lie to you through their teeth. Some took
months and even years before I caught them lying and
Many are cunning. They have some target in their
minds when they seek me as a friend. A female
student lamented that she has a miscarriage and
jobless and needs RM650 to buy equipments for a
burger business. Then she said she was divorced and
her husband was dead. It does not make sense when I
compute the time line between her husband's death
and her being divorced to her miscarriage. She has
two sons still in school. But I decided to depart
with my money for whatever reason, lying or not,
hoping she would tell me the truth for the sake of
helping her and to do my duty to God. But only once.
I told her the BSN is closed today and it is not
online these few days. She said she expected the
money to give to her kids who will go to school
tomorrow. And I stressed that the money I give will
be for the business capital only. This is the story
of the current event.
Also happening today a DHL lady from Kuala Lumpur
asked me for a C2 form to claim my repair and return
drone. I didn't know what it was. I rang up the DHL
office in Alor Setar to ask about the form. I know
today is a public holiday and the man who is working
there resides at the office, There was no answer in
the afternoon. In the evening I rang up again. He
asked me to go to the office. He said C2 is a custom
form. I asked him why didn't he ask me to fill in
before I send my drone for repair and return. he
said it was meant for import/export. It was sufficient
with the repair and return remarks. Then he phoned
somewhere and I heard him saying he was just trying
to help me. I sensed that he was trying to avoid
responsibility. And he even said that I have to pay
tax to the custom. I know he is trying to start a
blame game. I paid for the postal service, not free.
also had experiences in sending messages to people but
they never reply. A few would approached me when
they have something in mind, like wanting to borrow
RM50K, RM300K or a few hundred ringgit.
The dishonest, stupid and arrogant people will not
be happy at the end of their lives. The Indonesians
maids I know have fallen sick and being attacked by all sort of
diseases. They have sick husbands and mothers. They
have to struggle all their lives. The irresponsible
people are not blessed and have never settled their
days in peace and tranquillity.
don't believe that my girlfriend is honest with me.
And I know that she does not care nor believe in me
too. No words can convince me. I traced by her
actions after giving all the leeway I can. I feel
sorry to myself for being so silly and stupid,
sincere and honest. But I know that God is still
Abdul Rahman Raof
HOLIDAYS DON'T WORK
I were an investor I won't invest in a country where
there are too many holidays and in countries with
the minimum wage laws. There are countries without
those features, and labours are more skilled and
diligent. In Malaysia even businesses run by family
members emulate the government sectors on holiday.
Some Malay Food shops open from 6 pm to 9 pm while
the Mamak food outlets open 24 hours a day.
You buy something from USA and it takes 2 days for
the goods to arrive Malaysia, say Penang. It takes
another 3 days for the goods from Penang to arrive
Alor Setar by DHL.
am not talking about right or wrong but about a view
of an investor. I would not want to loose in the
competition and selling things at higher price and
making the potential customers to look somewhere
else for more efficient suppliers or vendors.
Laziness, high salaries and low productivity would
invite disaster to any company. I know of civil
servants who go to office and work on weekends,
holidays and at night. None of them ever thought of
extra remuneration. It is an innate attitudes that
can enhance productivity.
Once I remember the post office broke the tradition
by delivering letters and commodities to the
recipients 7 days a week and at odd hours. It was
good. Then it came to a sudden stop.
course we can have choices; to have lower pay or
joblessness, to work long hours or to stay
When a factory closes and a business cease to run
many would lose their jobs, and lamented and blame
the government. They love long holidays, big pay and
less work. They ask for the worst to happen to them.
Abdul Rahman Raof
FUSS OVER A DANCE
Haha..I recently danced alone at home, trying to
follow the steps of Zapin. It was a private affair,
isn't it. If by some mean somebody were to snap my
photo depicting my dance and blazoned it worldwide,
I think there would be a great furore in Malaysia.
Whether I am a small man or a great Chief Justice it
would somehow be a matter of public interest.
have to recognize the different between a private
dancing and the public one. It is a private matter
if the dance is not held in the public for the
public viewing. A family, a group of lawyers, a
group of doctors can always dance among themselves
within the community out of public view unless some
great guy is shooting the pictures secretly with the
dubious intent to let the whole world know about it.
remember very well vividly in my mind of being
criticized for riding a Honda 70CC motorcycle to my
workplace. They argued that a person of my position
would lose respect and the institution under me
would be at the lowly level. My teacher drove
expensive cars to school.
matter whatever reason given, no excuses should be
used to rebuttal their misconception, for my school
became one of the top schools in the country. We won
price after price and finally became a bench marking
school, visited by thousands of people not only from
Malaysia but also from Indonesia. You know what, my
successor was trying to erase the legacy and glory
of the past by putting away the past awards and
nobody knew where he put them.
is all about human beings, their hearts, characters,
attitudes and their mentality. In happens that in
this country such negative and archaic mentality
generally come from the Malays. So much so there are
Malays do not want to be recognized as Malays saying
that they are Bugis, Banjar, Pattani or some other
me Tommy Thomas is not dancing in public place like
what Apandi did. And there were many lawyers danced
in halls and private homes in the absence of
you make noise as they are doing now, I am sure
these people must be the Malays.
Abdul Rahman Raof
WHOEVER WINS I DON'T CARE
Whoever wins in
Cameron Highland, I don't care. What I care is
people are still dumb, whoever they are, for
forgetting lies and cheats. I don't because I have
the documents, the timeline events and the video
clips of all people and all parties. And I couldn't
be confused by attempts to delude me by people
intoxicated with money and gains.
I always know
money stolen from the public were hidden in save
place. Without morale and ethics they claim the fund
belong to the party. They are not shame in telling
lies and people are dumb enough not to trace the
lies. We all know very well of the donation story
that has become the sole reason of the of the money
in the bank.
PAS has lost my
total respect for saying that Orang Asli has no land
that belong to them. The Malays came long after the
natives to this country. They are savage party,
worst than the beast, donning the head dress and the
rob to show that they are Muslims and now
corroborating with the party they once announced as
Abdul Rahman Raof
THE SOUNDS OF SILENCE
Hello, darkness, my old friend
I've come to talk with you again
Because a vision softly creeping
Left its seeds while I was sleeping
And the vision that was planted in my brain still remains
Within the sound of silence
In restless dreams I walked alone
Narrow streets of cobblestone
Neath the halo of a streetlamp
I turned my collar to the cold and damp
When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light
That split the night
And touched the sound of silence
And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people, maybe more
People talking without speaking
People hearing without listening
People writing songs that voices never shared
No one dared
Disturb the sound of silence
"Fools", said I, "You do not know"
"Silence like a cancer grows
Hear my words that I might teach you
Take my arms that I might reach you"
But my words like silent raindrops fell
And echoed in the wells of silence
And the people bowed and prayed
To the neon god they made
And the sign flashed out its warning
In the words that it was forming
And the sign said
"The words of the prophets are written on the subway
And tenement halls
And whispered in the sounds of silence"
The Sound of
Silence is one of the most beautiful songs
that remains in my memory. I will try to
publish it here and hope the Youtube will
allow it so that the rest could appreciate
it and might depart with a small pittance to
buy the song. Other songs of similar stand
are Ye Sama, a Hindi song, Aryati, the
Indonesian song, Anak the Pinoy a nd Besame
I put this
kind of song in my video clip because they
give life to my boring movies. And at the
same time I want the people who watch my
clip feel cool while appreciating the
someone commented when he listen to Zainal
and Norain sang Jonny in my drone clip that
he wanted to go and get drunk, indicating
the effectiveness of the rhythm and the
The lyric is
on the left. You just try to understand and
translate the meaning behind it.
I give credit
to the singers, the song writer and the
minds that created such a beautiful melody.
It seeps deep into our hearts, young and
old. It is a song for all.
Abdul Rahman Raof
AT LAST WE SHOW WE ARE HUMAN
People are so greedy with money that they would do
anything in the world to get them. The Kelantan
government is under PAS rule, a party many thought
as a champion of Islam. In Perak the government is
under PH. Both of the Menteri Besar lost my respect,
and I named them as savage and beast, for claiming
the native lands belong to the state and the Orang
Asli has no legal right over the land.
wrote an essay last year expressing my deepest
feeling over what the Malays and Islam were trying
to do to the natives. Only now I heard the news
that the Federal government is suing the idiotic
and savage government of Kelantan, a leader who
called himself a Muslim and the dirty party that
called itself Islamic.
It is a pity that the Malays still vote for PAS with
such a savage instinct.
THE WISDOM OF POLITICIANS
Neither the PAS nor PH government show
wisdom in dealing with the Natives, the
Orang Asli. Both, the Menteri Besar of
Kelanan and Perak, are inhuman and
savage. My term for them is BEAST. No
amount of reasons and arguments given
The natives have been living in this
country long before the Malays stepped
into this land. We don't know how they
became Kings and claimed the ownership
of the whole country. Imagine a man
intrude into your home and claims the
house belongs to him, showing all the
documents with him and says your grant
Intruders came in with guns, weapons
with pen to write laws and regulations,
and imposing it as if it comes from God.
The Orang Asli had been practicing their
culture without any pen to create any
book of law. They did not have any
weapon to enforce their rights. Who are
these Menteri Besar to claim the land in
the country belongs to them ?
Human behaviours are very despicable.
They robbed the inhabitants of the
forest of their land for the benefit of
people with money, the greedy lot of
evil business community and the
inconsiderate politicians. Where is the
wisdom of the Malay leaders who are
suppose to show good examples and
majestic attitudes ?
They looked like savages rather than
rational human being. It is shameful
It would have been wiser for these Chief
Minister to go to the ground and spend a
day at the villages of Orang Asli.
Understand their culture, assess their
mental capacity, their capability and
their economy. They are not to listen to
their officers' words on the state of
the native affair. Busy is not the
Stopping the shifting cultivation is
similar to stopping the Muslim to stop
praying or covering themselves with
cloth. They have been doing it even
before the Malays laid their feet here.
As Ministers they should resolve the
plight of Orang Asli in a soothing way.
Else there is no better word than to
describe them as beast.
Abdul Rahman Raof
I continue to prepare my home breakfast. It is
simple but it is delicious. What provide the taste
is the chilli stuffs.
I thought it was
hot enough but it wasn't. The curry in the Indian
restaurant was much hotter. Mine was just nice.
I had the onions,
garlic, salt, lime, the red and green chilli and the
dried chilli soaked in warm water pounded together.
I had only a few small pieces of keropok as
If you are
talking of saving money, indeed it is. But iut
wasn't my intention to save money from food intake.
As I said before it is just for a challenge which I
have to start from below.
I want to cook
Nasi Lemak. It is also a basic step almost similar
to normal cooking except I add to have a pandan
leave and ginger and coconut milk. Certainly it will
be more yummy. The rest will be the same.
Abdul Rahman Raof
WHEN PEOPLE DON'T
FIND ME SUITABLE
I am one just
like most of you. I won't hang around with people
who do not find me suitable for them. They have
their own ways and their own lives to follow. In the
Face Book I do not accept my old friends as the FB
friends as they follow practices and culture that
are different from mine. And all those who despised
me before and had paraded their egoistic mood could
go for better persons who are more suitable to them.
I never want to
stay with any of my kids because we are not fit
together. They have their own choice of lives and I
never want anybody to tell me what and what not to
do. I applied to quit the technical education system
as my philosophy of education differed from the new
philosophy they introduced. I even applied to be
demoted to ordinary teacher from a principal when I
was in disagreement with my boss.
Simply , opposing
valued cannot be the Ying and Yang. They cannot mix.
It is painful.
The heart bleeds. The tears flow. But I believe it
is my fate.
If you hurt me
once, it implies you hurt me forever. No matter what
anyone does, the scar will be there forever. I
believe some women and men possess similar feeling
All were not of
my choice. It is their choices. I just accept them.
Of course I admit
that I would not mind if you call me stupid. That
won't hurt me because I know I am darn stupid. But
there are things that can hurt me deeply. One seldom
knows that one has hurled words that hurts people's
feeling or acts in such a manner.
factor is not merely confined to the male-female
relationships but to all aspects of life and
disciplines. So it goes to the different world of
the new amateur radio operators and the old ones.
The oldies were aware of their rejection by the new
ones. There are unsuitability of habits and
practices, of political beliefs etc.
It is the feeling
of rejection that counts. This is so when you are
old and senile, ugly and weak. Officers at the
counter and salespersons are not aware that the old
people are sensitive to the treatments they
received. We observed the facial outlook, their
countenance and their body language. And that was
what Tun Mahathir felt when he received treatments
from people before he became a the 7th Prime
But I am not
talking about Tun. It is about myself. I don't need
people to treat me like a king. What's wrong just to
say a single world of hello or " see you again ".
Abdul Rahman Raof
THE ROTI CANAI
very interesting to read what BN Cyber trooper wrote
about the Roti Canai road, blaming Dr Mahathir for
not doing anything to the Orang Asli. Who was Dr
Mahathir then ? He was in BN. BN government had been
shit all the time. Lim Kit Siang was talking of
Najib Razak did not rectify if the road was bad
under Tun. It was the last Prime Minister who is to
be blamed for not mending the errors in the past. Is
it not the work of Najib Razak to ensure the Roti
Canai road to be put back in order ?
Abdul Rahman Raof
THE 1MDB SAGA-THE
The world is
aggressively taking action on those involved in the
1Mdb fund. It was the money loaned by Malaysians,
billions of them, indicating that it was a form of a
scam. The Arabs themselves whom Najib trusted are
facing the music. Whether Najib pretended to be
unaware or otherwise it was him who signed the
approval. But Najib is showing us that he is not a
fool and is smart enough to mange the country. This
is what he is campaigning about, to portray his
wisdom in managing the government.
If Najib said he
was not a fool and smart then he should not declare
that he didn't know what he signed things for. This
involved billions of ringgit and it is still
affecting the Malaysians till today. And to save
himself from the wrath of UMNO he said whatever
money he has is for UMNO and belongs to the party.
The chairman has
been bluffing the people all the time. Now he is
saying that he has no money and poor enough that he
has to solicit money from his supporters. The
netizens do not believe him before and now. They
believe his stashing his money somewhere else.
Though rumours said it is in Hong Kong, I believe
they are in Australia and New Zealand, named under
his family members.
Knowing Najib I am
sure he is sending his people to see the judges and
offer a huge rewards for finding ways to put him off
the prison. It has been his style to do that, even
trying to bribe the American Presidency and DOJ.
Sach is in a deep shit.
His denial from pretending that he did not know the
money was to be swindled, was not accepted. Yet the
UMNO members pretended nothing has happened and they
believed Najib is innocent. That made the image of
the Malays and Islam in Malaysia went down the
I would wish there
will be mobs attacking the judges if they release
Najib Razak and the police must not give any
protection to him at all for the damage done had
been too great.
He was the
chairman. And he was responsible.
Goldman Sachs Group Inc chief executive officer David Solomon on
to the Malaysian
people for former
Leissner’s role in
the sovereign wealth
fund 1MDB scandal,
but said the bank
had conducted due
Goldman is being
authorities and the
US Department of
Justice (DOJ) for
its role as
arranger of three
bond sales that
last year charged
two former Goldman
bankers for the
theft of billions of
dollars from 1MDB.
Leissner, a former
partner for Goldman
Sachs in Asia,
pleaded guilty to
launder money and
violate the Foreign
“It’s very clear
that the people of
defrauded by many
highest members of
said on conference
call discussing the
Solomon said that
Leissner denied the
involvement of any
Leissner did not
to a request for
Roger Ng, the
other charged former
Goldman banker, was
arrested in Malaysia
at the request of US
authorities and is
expected to be
according to John
spokesman for the
The DOJ has said
that US$4.5 billion
officials of the
fund and their
2009 and 2014.
over 25 percent
As part of
Solomon said the
bank sought and
assurances from 1MDB
Co (IPIC) that no
third parties were
involved in the
first two bond
Abu Dhabi’s IPIC
the 1MDB bonds when
they were issued in
In the final
itself, along with
involved, he said.
Goldman Sachs have
proven to be false,”
Goldman Sachs did
not disclose any
1MDB, but said the
impact on its client
franchise had been
Shares of the
bank, which reported
results earlier in
the day, have fallen
over 25 percent in
the last three
headlines about its
involvement with the
government said in
December it was
seeking up to US$7.5
Goldman over its
dealings with 1MDB.
Abdul Rahman Raof
HE IS SMART
The first to think
he is the smartest is the lawyer. He will challenge
anybody and everybody with the law book in his hand
except for the two beautiful bikini girls I met in
Maldives. While we were having lunch on an atoll we
had a nice chitchatting over several matters
together with our guides. "What were you doing
before ?" One asked me.
"A teacher," I said.
"What do you teach ?"
"Oh that's what I thought when I first saw you, a
computer man," she responded.
" How about you ? " I asked.
"A lawyer, " she replied.
"Criminal ? Civil ? ..."
Her bikini did not
make her looked like a lawyer. The body was as
good as braless and bottomless. "I just want to take a
break," she said.
But I always think
I am stupid and a slow learner. I became matured at
the old age not when I was a young man. So when ham
radio people called me stupid, I am not angry.
Anybody can call me by any name. On whatever things I don't
know I would ask people for information, or I wwould explore to know more about them.
Most of the time I would seek people's advice.
I don't believe
education and qualifications could be use a flag to
discriminate the smart and the lesser ones.
Those educated have the propensity of making
and better in economic survival. However a school dropout
whose trade is painting and spraying is smart enough
to choose the best and ever lasting paints. And he
could even squeeze pittance out of your pocket. Do
you find lawyers, doctors and judges who paint their
own homes ?
In the world of
ham radio I met several people who simply refused to
ask and learn Morse codes from others because they
have their own theory and systems. And finally they
came up with the remarks "Morse is not relevant to
Smart people wrote
a lot of political essays teaching the government of
what to do and what not to do, what policy to follow
and what to be disregard. They always think the rest
are stupid. The racists will write and called the
other racists. They believe that they are the best
people in the country.
A lady friend of
mine says she prefer the smart people to the honest
and sincere guys. The ex-Prime Minister, Najib,
said he preferred the loyal people to the smart
ones. But the country needs the honest, sincere and
smart people to run an effective government.
Islam taught the
followers to be humble and to show humility, avoid
bragging and chest thumping to show one's greatness
and smartness. It follows by a Malay proverb " a
diamond that falls into a mud, will still be a
Abdul Rahman Raof
WHILE WAITING FOR
MY RICE TO COOK
I wanted to cook
for a long time ago but was too busy doing something
else. It is not just to save money or my own cooking
gives a better taste. It is just a challenge. It
also makes me busy. Of course at the same time I can
estimate the expenditure for food if I choose not
not to eat out. The food ingredient are not cheap as
I discovered last night when I went to buy a packet
of dried prawns. It was RM6+.
While waiting for
the rice to cook, I am typing this short article of
my activity this morning. I made preparation first
by pounding the chilli with the dried prawns, fried
the keropok, boil an egg and the Basmati rice. The
rest are laid down on the table at the moment except
for the rice. By the time I finished typing it will
be all done.
The hassle of the
home cooking is the washing of pot, plates and all
other utensils. The more the utensils the more the
time utilized. Then I have to rearrange them to make
things look neat. It won't be messy.
But it gives
satisfaction and fulfilment. It gives me a small
I just finished my
breakfast, a kampong style, Malaysians and probably
Indonesian Malay folks. Simple. Tasty. But not too
great. There is always a room for improvement. The
Tomato Rice vendor would be wondering where this
'teacher' goes and the roti kirai fellow too. I can
minimise my food expenditure from eating out just by
buying the gravy with one small fish. That would
cost me probably about RM4. The rest I would cook, a
little for lunch and a dinner.
Imagine the price
I have to pay for going to a Mac D or KFC. The
recent burger costs RM16 a piece.
Abdul Rahman Raof
Are you being
jilted by a woman before ? Yes, it is sad and
painful. But that is not the end of your life.
Think this way;
the woman who chuck you off does not find that you
are suitable for her. She will choose the best for
her. And if you are not for her and you still want
to plead for her and decide to poison yourself if
she continues to reject you then you are the fool. A
one sided love is no love, foolish and a waste of
time. You have to learn and be strong.
The first girl
that I fell in love was when I was in school, my
neighbor. I was about to leave school in Form 5. She
was in a private school in Form 4. Her parent didn't
like me and I was very frustrated. She did not chuck
me but merely follow her parent's wish. She married
and I too get married with my wife. When our
children grew big, probably about 30 to 35 years
later, I heard she fell sick, suffering from cancer.
My wife asked me to go and visit her at the hospital
as she sent a message that she wanted to see me. I
didn't go. Months later I heard she passed away. My
wife was fond of her son as they were acquainted in
their professions. But I had met her once before she
was diagnosed having cancer. She asked me to buy a
stamp for her. I bought, gave her the stamp, didn't
talk anything else. And I went away.
I knew that I was
inhuman. But that was the pain and agony of the
rejection, the very strong impact, that made me
wanted to forget her in my life. The bleed stopped
as I cherished my wife to the best of my life until
her permanent departure. My heart became empty and I
do not have feeling for any woman again.
It has not been
even 5 years yet when my wife passed away. I find
calmness when I stay alone, leading a solitary life.
And I feel so free like a bird. Till a woman a
adored came into my heart. I do not know much about
her but I know of her active and sociable life. We
met and talk several times.
But now she is
keeping herself away. I know that I am being
rejected like before and I am not going to plead for
love and pity. It is painful. It is bleeding. But I
have been strong before. Surely there is someone
somewhere with a good heart who wants to accept me
as her companion before I die.
Life is too short.
Why must we make life miserable when we can always
get out of it, not by drinking and intoxicating or
taking drugs to run away from sadness. Leave the
misery alone and get on with life. In March I will
be going for a trip to Taiwan and enjoy the sight
seeing and the wonder of the world. I will make
myself busy with the evening exercise, doing some
adventure in cooking and probably asking my monthly
Indonesian maid and her friends to accompany me to
lunch somewhere. I have not taken the maid for about
three months already as Ah Hua came around to clear
the compound of my house.
If you are being
jilted just forget about the woman.
Abdul Rahman Raof
MEMORABLE TIME OF HAMMING
My ham elmers were
Malcom and Eshee. Malcom is in Australia now wirh an
Australian call sign but spent most of his time on
Senior Ham Whatsapp. Eshee as we all know passed
away only in recent years. I was involved in the
hobby in 1975. From 5.00 to 7.00 pm we would be
making noise all over the 40 meter band both on SSB
and CW. To us 40 meter was the our locals to have
contact with each other. But sometimes the extended
stations from DU and YB land joined in. All
conversations were in English.
It was at night,
after the last prayer, I would only go for the long
distant or DX stations. The band was good then. I
used an inverted V dipole with a tall bamboo mast. I
knew my signal was strong as there were pileups. I
never just gave them the signal report but
repeatedly would tell my name, location, their
signal report, antenna , rig and temperature.
At the earlier
time of the night stations from Japan, India and
Indonesia came in. Every night I would talk to
YB0HH, AK Jailani, a Kerocong artist who had been
making lots of album. Pak Lani told me about his
fight to get the name AK Jailani. "I can read Kuran,"
he said. "But I am a Chinese." So we talked about
music and Keroncong and a laugh and very merry time
until he passed away.
Then there was
another time a station calling me, identified
himself as a pilot ,waiting to fly from Bali to
Narita. He asked me to wait until the completion of
procedure and would resume the take off. I don't
remember his call sign now. Then we resume our chat
till he was about to arrive Japan, and we signed off.
It was not an uncommon for the pilot that passed
over my head gave me a call and exchanged short
I also remember
well when a HZ1HZ called me, introduced himself as
Ahmad and I introduced myself as Rahman. He asked me
to change my name other than Rahman. 'Rahman' he
said is one of the names of the God. I said I was a
teacher. He never told me his profession. Only later
I knew that he was King Ahmad Talal. I do not
remember how many time I worked him.
When a station
gave his QTH as South Pole I was taken aback. "What
do you do in the South Pole ? " I asked. He described
his work as a researcher of some scientific stuffs.
I reckoned that he was in a team of scientists.
Last but not the
least when a station from Hollywood called me. We
had a long chat on movies I saw. When I mentioned
names he said those actors were his friends. That
meant he was an actor as well.
Those were among
the memorable moments of my contact as a ham radio
operator. My dipole had served me pretty well.
Abdul Rahman Raof
ZAPIN THE BEST
I am intrigue by
the Zapin dance. It is the best of all the
traditional dance in the country. Though Zapin is
said to be introduced by the Arab missionaries in
the 15rh Century, the steps and the dance movements
are more like the traditional silat. It is very
popular in Johore and in almost every wedding
festivals Zapin will be called to perform the dance.
Onb many instances the groom would join the dance.
recommended that all the Malay medium must must made
Zapin compulsory component in the co-curriculum
Johore champion scholl
Zapin at marriage festival
Zapin Lambak Macam Main2
Certainly it will have a unique
traditional identity not found anywhere else.
Let me try talking to one of my
friends who is still teaching of the possibility to
start a Zapin class.
Abdul Rahman Raof
WORRY OF DEATH ?
People are worried about me. They
fear that I would die alone and fall sick without
being attended. But I am worried about them also
however young they are, especially of men and women
above 40. They have been thinking that they are
young and strong and will never die till they reach
80 or 90. Base on their eating habits I fear the
worst; that they may be attacked by cardio vascular
disease. Heart attack is very common among men
In the modern days people announce of
them being alive and kicking through the social
media. Facebook is one of them. When we read remarks
from them then we know that they are alright. Even
if they are hospitalized they would publish the news
by pictures. A week of no news could mean anything
for a stroke doesn't take two days to die. Some may
die at an instant and others might suffer paralysis
their whole life.
Young people usually take in
excessive amount of food with the most sweetest and
dangerous drink like Coke. Besides they also smoke.
They gain weigh quickly and at the same time
diabetes and heart problem begin to crawl in. And
only a few would go for exercises to compensate
At the jogging track I could see only
a few fat people striving to gain distance at the
shortest time possible. It takes months and years
before their body size look a little thinner. At
least they were efforts put to keep fit.
Of course not all the fat people die
young. It is the risk one is taking by ignoring the
good and healthy living.
For us, the old folk, to die first is
not an uncommon happenings. People shouldn't get
worried about us. It is they who should worry about
themselves. When I do not get news from someone in
particular I get very worried no matter how young
Abdul Rahman Raof
THE CHANGE FOR
the days when I would look for the cheapest place to
stay in during my travelling days. I stayed in
hostels, YMCA, and shared rooms. It saved a lot of
money. After all most of the time were spent on
sightseeing and visiting. The rest was to sleep,
having a short rest and to clean ourselves.
things change now. At an old age I want comfort. It
doesn't matter if the room is small as long as it is
well furnished and the air-conditioning system works
very fine. I prefer a three, four or possibly five
star hotel for vacation or a siesta. Of course they
must be at an affordable price and at the time when
money is plentiful.
room where I ever stayed was in one hotel in Amman
Jordan. On checking into the room I was so excited
that I rushed down to inform of my fellow travel
mates of the bed room like the room of a King. In
Marriot Medan I narrated to my friends of a huge bed
with more than 10 pillows. I stayed alone in every
trip, simply I do not want to cause
inconvenience to my room mate for I may wake up
several times in the night or I may snore loud enough.
Travelling in a package tour I always have to pay
the single supplement, for double occupancy.
Whenever they gave me a small single room I would
on transit I would not want the best and expensive
room. To go to an over sea trip I have to put up a night
near the airport. The flight might be in early
morning. This is what I call transit. There are good
and comfortable rooms below a hundred ringgit around
package trip is hectic and tiring. There is no rest.
Even on arriving, the tour would start to commence
till late night. We would be
sleepy and less energetic. They say the hotel does
not open yet. Some agencies would wait till midnight
before they shove you in. People have been
complaining a lot but only fell on the deaf ears.
The motive is always on the
profit margin. I prefer to go alone so that I can
plan my own time.
change for comfort does not apply to all of my
choices. I never dream to have a big and a new
car, a palace house or sophisticated entertaining
equipments. The change is on the lodging choice when
I go travelling.
Abdul Rahman Raof
AMONG THE PLACES
The pictures re
not arrange in any sequent
cotton hill turkey
Left and this picture are
in New Zealand
ISLAND ON NILE
MAID'S HOUSE AT LOMBOK
KOREA - ALIEN SAUCER
REAL MADRID STADIUM-SPAIN
ON ATOL MALDIVES
that I could not find is on my trip to Hawaii. I was
there not once, nit twice but more than 10 times. I
noticed the Kodak Hoola Show dancers changed a great
deal from the first time till the last I saw them.
But they continued to dance gracefully.
My message to you is that, it does
not take a rich and wealthy person to travel abroad
and enjoy the spectacular scenic views in different
countries. I was lucky because travelling in those
days were cheap. Today they cost double the old
price eg New Zealand is now RM14K plus. It was only
RM7K in the early '80s. A trip to USA was only RM4K
but now RM24K plus.
I can't afford
to spend RM17K for a week trip to Africa or RM25K to
USA today. Within a RM5K limit we can still travel
around to countries around our region.
Secondly, if you are a believer
then you must know that providence from God is
sometimes plentiful and in abundance. Just have
faith in the Creator and be good and honest, sincere
and to thank God for whatever sustenance you have. I
am not only a person with the basic subsistence
level but am also not a smart and a cleverly
If you are not one of a believer
than you would say it is a luck and coincidences.
STYLE AT THE OLD
I grow the more fashionable I become. I don
different watches at different time of the day.
Casio analog watch is used during the day time. The
Samsung smart watch is donned during the walking
exercise and at night.
reason is simply due to it's visibility. The analog
is difficult to see in the dark.
The smart watch is sparkling colorful clear when it
is flashed. I bought the Casio when I visited Japan
a couple of years ago. I have no complain as it is
so perfect and accurate in showing the time of the
day. Unlike Samsung it is not useful to wear it
during the jogging or walking time. It does not show
the time and distant covered, the calorie and the
watch, Samsung Gear 3, was bought in Alor Setar from
the Samsung outlet. It was about 3 or 4 years ago.
Moreover the Samsung
many watch faces to choose from. The only snag of
the Samsung watch is that I need to charge it
between three or four days.
So far I
have been on time 98% of my promises or going to
work. When I say I will be at a certain place at a
certain time I will be there sharp at the stipulated
time. If I do not arrive at the time promised you
have better ring me up to find out what could have
will display nothing when it is idle to save the
power. One Datin thought I was a crazy person as she
saw nothing on it's face. I knew by her look and by
her question. Big guys always regard other small
people as stupid or crazy.
people would care whatever watch I donned. Everybody
has one. Theirs may be more expensive and rare. Only
once in a blue moon there would be somebody who will
come over asking for the time. And nobody would ever
think an old man like me would use different watches
at different time of the day for convenience. It
served my purpose.
A MACHINE AND A
different between a human and a machine is the
present of mind and emotion in a human being. Man
has successfully inserts intelligence in a machine,
making it able to sense human, recognize obstacles
and to avoid them, and to conduct responses to a
certain stimuli but they were all artificial in
nature, whereas mankind has emotional intelligence
in them, that guides their thinking and behaviours.
One has a soul and the machine does not.
their advantages and disadvantages. But we can be
sure that a machine does not recognize between a
young and an old man, as a human can, and a man
would response to the perceived information either
to respect, discriminate, to ignore, to assist or to
today is the idea of man-machine relationship and
man to man relationship (man includes woman). A man
can depend on the machine to accompany him,
entertain and to satisfy him though the machine does
not response emotionally and vocally. He can be
certain that the machine will not hurt and insult
him, or steal and rob from him.
viciousness comes from the man who can do you a lot
of damage by putting you in shame, throwing you in
jail, insult and belittle you and exploit you the
fullest. They run away with their friend's money.
There are more dishonest men than the good ones. A
machine does not hurt you by it's own action. So are
your cats and other pets. Some people prefer to talk
to cats and dogs rather than to fellow humans.
MONARCHY IS NOT
idea of equality implies everyone is equal in the
eyes of fellow humans and should be subjected to the
same law for all. The term immunity should be
scrutinized worldwide regardless of the office or a
Also we need
to see the concept of freedom and democracy and the
freedom of speech. It needs to be defined between an
absolute freedom and a limited freedom. What is the
limit of a freedom ? Should there be no limit at all
tried to set a limit like 'Don't do unto others
if you don't want other to do unto you'.
people and the Head of States must know their lines
and where they should stand. In a capacity of a King
he must not make an enemy with his subject whoever
they are. praise the good ones and say nothing on
the bad ones. He must see the interest of the people
first then of himself.
things a King can't do but an ordinary man can.
There are too many rules and standard to be
observed. If he can't stand them he might as well
abdicate the position and give way to someone else.
In fact to be a normal man is more free and more
enjoyable than to be a King.
It would be
difficult if a King has his own rule and ways to do
things. It may somehow cause unavoidable collusion.
An impasse would opened up an unhealthy and
unpredictable passage for a potential conflict.
Showing a partisanship is bad and it is felt by the
I observe in
the parliament of members who do not like to be
insulted even just by calling names. The one who
insulted the other could not accept the resultant
response. So much so there are rules made on matters
concerning insults, which mean that democracy has a
cases a thief call others a thief and a racist calls
others the racists. He can call others bastard and
would fight back if others called him by the same
democracy does not allow us to insult anybody we
want to insult. Free speech does not give the
absolute right for man to call anybody a bastard, or
to insult a King for that matter.
a King does a thing which normally a king does not
do, there is bound to be some remarks from the
citizen. What more if a King displayed his
partisanship vividly in the eyes of the public. Some
of their views are logical and contain absolute
would ask a question, shall there be a law to
protect a King who murder his subject ?
A respect is
always earned not demanded nor requested. Neither it
be made into law.
are there are good and evil. They are not scared of
law. They insulted even God. They made jokes and
laugh about God hell and heaven. The Westerners made
fun of their bibles. American President burnt the
Koran. The Muslim did the same to the bibles. And
everybody insulted each other's God.
tranquillity and peace are we talking about ?
my former Indonesian made never made fried rice for
me but only the normal white rice and grind chilli.
She must put something in the chilli that made it so
very tasty. I consumed the rice, the chilli, and a
boiled egg. There was no gravy nor vegetables but
the taste was so delicious.
I tried to
cook the friend rice today. I was so in a hurry I
forgot several ingredients like the garlic and salt.
The chilli was not hot enough. So much so the fried
rice was tasteless. Lucky I have a friend fish and
some Keropok. Combine them together I could finish
the whole bowl with two intake; breakfast and lunch.
It cost me only RM6 for the chilli, ikan talang (dry
fish) and 5 pieces of eggs.
breakfast and dinner is one third of the normal
expenditure if I were to eat out. Believe me the
total expenditure for the raw fish, vegetables and
other ingredients for one month was only RM50 minus
the cooking gas and the uncooked rice.
Over all my
fried rice was better than if I were to buy Nasi
Lemak or the breakfast outside.
An income of
a thousand ringgit is ample if you do your own
cooking and consuming the lower grade fish or even
prawns. A kilo of mackerel cost RM14 in today's
market when it was only RM4 before. Fishermen will
not lower the fish price despite the previous fuel
subsidy given. But the fish would last you at least
a week. The only snag is that we need a freezer. The
poor people cannot afford a freezer, and the high
rate of electricity bill. The bill would be about
RM40 a month.
If one is
prudent and completely avoiding lavishness, I think
one can manage a small luxury of life for the family
comfort. One KFC dinner with a family is almost a
month expenditure on self cooking.
housewives can cook very well, extremely well and
taste better than the 5 star hotels. I have always
wish to have a wife like that. But working wives
have no time to do the cooking. More than 90% would
prefer buying outside food.
I know if I
were to decide to do the home cooking, I can always
improve the cooking. It is a matter of mixing the
ingredients and of what sorts.
famous vendors from USA are Amazon and Ebay. I
ordered a few finger print scanners about 10
years ago and they reached my home intact without
much extra cost. I don't remember the delivery
method. Probably by normal air-mail postage since
they were light and small.
I can't for
others who have been buying heavy and bulky
equipments like a transceiver or a huge radio
antenna. But my recent experience was sending back
my drone, weighing about 1.4KG for repair,
that cost me RM350 by DHL. With the same weight and
a little bigger box would have cost me RM500. The
FEDEX rate is just the same.
and replacement of the gimbal rotor charge,
inclusive of labour cost, is USD70. It is very
reasonable. But the postage is USD84.
Psychologically I feel satisfied for many reasons. I
had a Mavic Pro purchased from the local shop that
dropped for no reason but was rejected and the
blamed was put on me. And someone in Selangor asked
me about the performance of Mavic battery which I
fixed after it became swollen. Hundreds and
thousands other Mavic Pro users were complaining
about the Mavic batteries. tell you to throw them
and get a new one. The new one is about RM400.
Amazon also sell numerous Chinese products.
Consumers would prefer the American or European made
stuffs which they know to be more reliable and
durable. The Americans prefer to manufacture items
for military use rather than finding the world
market like the japanese, Koreans and the Chinese.
The later even stepped in the United States to open
factories and companies. They are very aggressive in
expanding their businesses worldwide.
If the Ebay
and Amazon only accepted products that meet the
American standard then we can believe on the quality
and it's reliability. If you buy a Mavic Pro from
Malaysia and the United States you will find they
are not of the same price. Mavic imported from USA
cost much more.
postage is high we will be happy and satisfied in
exchange for the quality.
MY FIRST DEBIT
CARD PAYMENT OVER SEA
It has been
a torture to me whenever I desire to buy something
from over sea. When my wife was still alive I found
several sliding board that I wanted to buy for her
in the Amazon website. I could not place an order as
I did not own a Credit Card. And I had to ask my son
living in the capital city to buy for his mother.
I have a
debit card though which facilitate me to purchase
online but within the country. That was the
situation for a long time ago.
recent was I wanted to order a drone from USA, Autel
Evo. I had to seek my friend's help who lives about
500 miles away. Actually I hate to bother people to
do things for me. I know they won't be comfortable
running an errand for me. It would troubled them and
troubled me also. I had to travel South just to pick
up the flying machine.
I went to my
bank making enquiry about using my ATM card to as
what the credit card does. The bank said it was
possible but I have to call the Bank HQ in Kuala
Lumpur to get the foreign purchase approval. That
discouraged me. Calling distant office has always
been a painful affair. The machine will answer and
telling you about what to do with the numbers. Then
you have to wait as the officer is said to be busy.
The longest time I ever experience was more than an
to search for more information and typed "using
maybank debit card for oversea purchase" in the
Google search engine. The page gave instructions and
I followed step by step, first I had to activate the
over sea flag, set from what date to the date I want
it to expire. Then I had to set a limit. When it
came to request for the TAC code I halted because at
that time I had no recipient yet.
On the 7th
December I sent my drone back to USA for a small
problem. My God the postage was very expensive,
which I later realize it was more than the repair
and the spare part. This morning I received
acknowledgement of the drone in the office and the
total price was quoted.
I opened the
Maybank page but the menu had changed. There page of
other services was not displayed. I went to the bank
and asked about the Card Management. The officer
said that was only for the travellers in the foreign
countries who wish to do the purchasing using the
debit card. He asked me to request the account
number and the bank of the repairer. It frustrated
I emailed to
the Maybank HQ and to the company in the United
States. To the bank I narrated my situation and
asked for any solution. To Autel I asked for the
banking information. At the same time I opened up
the Maybank.com again. To my surprise the missing
page appeared again. I set the limit, the activation
flag and request for the TAC number. Then I went
back to the payment side and filled in purchase
under the credit card info columns and pressed for
final payment. To my amazement things worked. Autel
responded immediately. I feel at ease for I do not
have to burden my friend again. And what the hack
the bank officer was telling me about.
I gave two weeks for the expiry till I got back my
drone. In fact I could have done the deactivation
part but I do not.
This is the
first time I made the over seas payment using my
Visa ATM card.
THE OLD IS STILL
You wouldn't believe it songs and
music written and sung 80 years ago are still under
copyright laws. They just simply refused to
dismantle them from the copyright and allowed them
to be used freely. Of course they are all beautiful
songs that will live forever no matter how much
changes had been in the world of music and tempo.
The old is still a gold.
Similarly, in Ham Radio what made
it so beautiful and completed is the sound of the
Morse code, the tradition that Ham Radio started
with. It is not a copyright stuff but the quality of
immortality. It provides meaning and the identity of
The game of Chess continued for
many centuries and never been abandoned by the
I had a tough time when embedding
an old song in my uploaded video to the Youtube. It
always shot up with the copyright warning. A few
friends sang the same song, but I was told the music
is copyrighted. Mind you these are old songs,
everybody involved in them are not on this earth
anymore. They are all dead.
Religion and God is regarded as
archaic. Many rejected the existence of God
and despise the Holly Book and the God House but to
some it is something useful to appease their soul.
At the time of sadness and helplessness the first
thing they would do is to find God to to console
themselves. It is the old tradition that brings them
peace and tranquillity.
I realize that the old is still a
gold and should not be discarded for something
In some places men walk for miles
to get to work. They used to such life and never
grumbled about it. In a nearby place a man
accustomed to driving his car to the office would
skip the day's job if his car stalls.
In Ham Radio the old is fading off
as the new regulations are pushing them away through
the indirect mean. There were only about 250 hams in
the old days but they were all over the local band
almost everyday enjoying the daily chatting. Today
there are more than 30000 licensees in Malaysia and
there were as good as nil on the band.
You can judge by yourselves the
value of the tradition and the old stuffs and the
new and modern cultural practices.
BOB KNIGHT AND
You wouldn't know who Bob Knight
is, neither Ted Kitchel. When I was with a few
Americans on a tour bus in London I mentioned Bob
and Ted as they were from Indiana Bloomington, the
same place where I stayed for almost 1 1/2 years. Of
course I introduced myself as a Malaysian and
studied in Bloomington IN for the period of time. We
talked of the British and compared them to the
Americans, and laugh with joy.
One of the craziest game in
Indiana university was basketball. The coach was Bob
Knight. Among the few players I still remember were
Randy Whitman and Ted Kitchel. We won most of the
matches. Bob Knight later became the US Olympic
coach. Ted was with me in the same class taking a
paper called Collective Bargaining. Bob Knight was
one of the best coaches but Ted and Randy didn't
seem to like him. Both were handsome but Ted was
younger and the tallest in the class. I was lucky to
be able to talk to a basketball celebrity just
because he was my classmate.
I was in Indiana University from
1982/83. It was a great
year for the university basketball. My whole spirit
and soul was with Indiana and I felt like one
We were worried when Ted Kitchel was
injured and he told me it was bad and he could not
play in the final. Bob Knight appealed for fan
support to rally around the team. We won the title.
Bob ordered that a banner be hung for the team in
as a tribute to the fans, who he credited with
inspiring the team to win its final three home
That made the conversation with the visiting
Americans in London was so lively. They made me feel
like one of them, the Americans. Imagine I could
still remember Randy Whitman and Ted Kitchel until
I stayed in 205 Redbud Apartment in Bloomington.
I continued to visit United States almost every
other year until the US government made visiting the
country is so very difficult, making us like a
criminal and a terrorist. But in all those years
after 1983 I did not step into my old campus again
as my routes did not path the Midwestern States but
once. It was the year when I went to Dayton OHIO for
the Hamvention (Forgotten the year) with a couple of
my friends. Dayton was so near to Indiana.
Most of the time, when I travelled alone I would
just stay in Buena Park area. I went with a package
tour for a couple of times and we covered Mexico,
Los Angeles, Universal Studio, Disneyland, Las Vegas
and San Francisco. With my neighbor we went to
Lubbock Texas via Las Vegas, Hoover Dam, Grand
Canyon, New Mexico. Then proceeded to Disney World
and Cape Canaveral Florida. In 2002 my wife and I
went to my son's commencement at Cornell University
and we went to Florida again.
United States was just like a second home to me, a
feeling in me about 15 years ago. It was the country
I visited most.
Bob Knight is still my hero and I will still
remember him till my last day.
It is not that I don't have a hero coach in this
country. I do. He was Pak Ismail, a Kedah football
in the early years. I was still a kid then and would
always follow the coaching and training in the old
playing field at Jalan Sungai Korok. I was amazed
with his scientific training and his giving
importance in stamina training. Players need to run
about 20 or 30 times around the field before playing
The gossip took the country by storm
even before the abdication of our King. News of
whatever happened in Russia had blazoned throughout
the world. It was something that no one could stop
in this digital age. Pictures were viraled and the netizens had seen pictures of the King's wife.
There is nothing wrong for anyone to
marry anybody he or she likes. And it is not our job
to be very concerned about the affairs of others.
But when it happens to our King then gossips travels
fast. In fact it could not be suppressed and be
forgotten as it could have involved in a greater
scandal. Someone said that she could be a KGB. Or
the King could be a victim of some sort of
conspiracy of a con man, a criminal who is akin to
Jho Lo, preying on dignitaries to solicit money or
to blackmail for the perpetual flow of money to a
have to flash the law that anything concerning Kings
cannot be discussed ? This will inevitably pushed people
to find out more about the whole monarchical system
in our nation; the origin of
the Kings and who gave them the legitimacy and the
ultimate power. To some educated men they would
moved further to study the history of the birth of a Republic and
Nevertheless we can appeal to the citizens to show
some pity and respect by not putting shame on other
people, not to add more of the mental. Our King could turn out to be a victim of
a certain conspiracy.
But the Kings must
always remember that they cannot totally depend on
the mere law to protect and hide them of all their
doings. The people are much stronger than the law.
They could push for the referendum whether or not to
form a Republic. If we don't have the wisdom to
Of course we have another alternative
to change the government from a democratic to an authoritarian
like that of North Korea, where leaders can do no
Without people a King is as good as
useless. Without people the police and the army are
useless. And without people no amount of laws and
regulations would come into effect.
You don't know
that you are being old unless someone tells you so,
directly or indirectly through insinuation or
regulation. The health insurance and investment
agency's agents would me to their booth and talked
me into buying the insurance and invest in the
scheme by borrowing from them. Then they would ask
me for my age, like as what has just happened about
a few hours ago when I went to my bank for some
Then they would
mentioned the above word after I told them my age. I
felt humiliated and sad. I know what being old is.
It is the age when you are considered as a senile
old man, incapable of a sharp and straight thinking,
weakness in mobility, and the days of breathing the
fresh air is numbered.
response was, "Don't the young people die ? "
In Malaysia there
were hundreds of men below 60, killed the killer
disease called stroke. My contemporaries and other
persons of 75 and above are still active, and
keeping themselves fit everyday in the jogging track.
If we are not
told that we are old then we wouldn't have known that we
are old. It took me several months to convince
myself that I am old until my whole body and soul
can accept the fact of my being ageing. If I were to
be aware of my useless and only to prepare to go to
heaven, I wouldn't have bought and flew the drone
bird, nor would I buy a fancy Samsung Gear3 to don
it. I remember a Tamil restaurant owner's son said
"My father is already old and about to die. He
wasted his money on a 5K watch. What for ?"
insurance car companies concluded that old men and
old cars tend to get involve in the accidences than
the young men.
Surely I would
call it discrimination for excluding us in
the insurance and the investment loan schemes.
On the other hand
the clerk who had been doing the saving book
updating repeatedly asking me to invest in the
property share run by the bank. The reason is
simple. They only want my money. The same bank
rejected my credit card application for being old
and a pensioner. Being old is a sin and our status
is at a derogatory state.
always been busy with their own welfare, and too
busy to take care of their jobs and children. The
meaning of an elderly father or mother is the
money they hope as a bequest. I don't keep my money
to give away to the banks or financial institutions
nor my kids. I accumulate them for my own bread and
butter, for my medical expenditure.
Less than a year
ago, we all saw how Tun M was humiliated by our
King. And other elderly people were humiliated and
insulted by the younger Minister like Nazri Aziz who
spouted words of Rafedah Aziz as an old lady. It was
no excuse even if during the political storm of the
GE14 campaign. And the King should have not let an
old man waiting for hours in the Istana. It was an
insult to all the old men in the universe.
I think we ought
to avenge those institution that discriminate us
ansd strike back when the time come.
YOU CAN'T FOOL
ALL PEOPLE ALL THE TIME
In the modern
world the defence of alibi holds no water. A man can
direct a murder and theft and an arson without being
at those places. He can sit in his room and command
as many crimes and at many places as possible via a
communication equipments; call it a radio or a
phone. It would be very impossible before the
mastery of technology came into the universe.
As I have argued
before and the rest of the people would agreed to it
that hanging a man who shot Altantuya is not the end
of it. Who ordered the man to shoot ? Who were there
in the scene of shootings ? Who approved the C4 bomb
to be smuggled out of the store ? They were all
accompliceS and complicit in the death of the
A President does
not have to be in Iran to order his General to bomb
Taheran and the flew to South Korea to command his
other Gneral to attack Pyong Yang. And his lawyers
argue that he is not responsible for he cannot be in
two places or three places at the same time ?
People play with
words and listeners believe in those words. Actually
no amount of big and complicated words can erase the
truth. Najib were asked why the GST was not paid
back within a week and where did the money go and
his reply was PH stole the money. Now he was asked
where the 800 millions went to and he is whacking
the Minister who asked him to explain about the 800
millions. Lawyer Shafiee loves to use words to
hypnotise and trick people. Then we heard a new term
of Creative Accounting when Tabing Haji's money was
reported in disarray situation.
and 'a man cannot be in more than one place at the
same time' to prove that he cannot commit crime are
false and malicious attempts confuse the judiciary
and the public.
They can fool
most people most of the time but they can't fool all
people all the time.
Minimum wage is
not an antidote but a disease to economic illness.
You must know that not every American is well off
and has plenty of money to spend. As for the
situation today the Chinese has more money to spend
than the inhabitants of the United States.
Unemployment is rampant and crime rates are high.
There is a minimum wage rule in the United States.
American firms prefer to manufacture their goods
outside the country where the labour cost is cheap.
Jobs in USA moves to China.
in USA prefer foreigners who are willing to accept
much lower wages. Border states have Mexicans to
work in farms and other jobs.
In Asian region
there are countries where labour is still cheap. But
Malaysia is upgrading itself in the increasing the
minimum wage. MTUC pushed for it. The workers
politically threatened the government. When it is
put into law than it has put a big burden in many
businesses. In some goods the sale are slow. The
profit is low. Factories may not be able to cope the
sale with the increasing salaries. As a result the
factories either have to close down or move away to
countries where the labour cost is low.
Lower income does
not mean the people would be worst off. The lower
food prices and other products would stabilize the
Wages must be
correlated to national income and I believe it
should float to follow the economy of a country.
I don't mind if
my pension goes down by 50% if the goods and
commodities, services and all other products go down by 60%.
It sounds absurd and impossible.
I have passed
several situations where people would elect the
complainants to lead the office they complained
about. And these people came out to be much worst
than the people they complained before. What I had
experienced in my institution before was enough to
make me ignore this kind of people. They turned out
to be very dishonest, corrupt and ruined the whole
organization under their care.
I would not give
these people any leeway and a chance to run any
organization. The errors are bound to happen and so
far they were beyond repair and the damage done was
very costly. In my school the same teacher who had
ruin our co-operative would complaint about teaching
stupid boys. Once he came to ask me to see how
stupid the students were.
He failed to know
my believe and stance that NO STUDENT IS STUPID. At
that time my Mathematic and Science teachers were
all non-graduates. They were complaining about
stupid student all the time, in the school canteen
and in the staff room.
Later I get a few
graduates in Sciences and Mathematics. I told my
teachers that the poor students were like the sick
people who went to hospitals for medication. What if
the doctors were to scold or send them back, and
only prefer the more healthy patients ?
The new teachers
were non-complainants. They understood my message
and worked hard to run human the processing from the
poor to the better. At the end of year their results
rose unbelievable high, a quantum lead that never
People who talked
a lot in meetings and political gatherings, in my
view, are only good at talking but never good in
doing things. If they are in my own organization I
would not risk in trusting them or giving them any
post. This is my belief about the complainants and
about those who have been delivering fiery speeches.
It is not by those who complaints who constantly
complaint every procedure was wrong. All others were
wrong. They are the only right people in this world.
But they themselves did nothing substantively.
have no time to complaint about because they have
too little time to chase their targets.
retirement there were schools that asked me to
install the biometric attendant system application.
To a certain degree I would say it was a good
software. I fixed and taught them how to use
the system. The moment I heard complaints that the
system was bad, I quickly deleted and uninstalled
it. I paid back the money and walked away. I would
tell them to get the better one somewhere else. It
was a tit for a tat. You call me a bad guy. But I
just don't entertain the complainants.
You notice they
will complaint all the time; they complaint of the
rain and shine, of too much or too little of
everything, too slow or too fast. Even when they are
about to die they are not happy with the world.
People tend to
think that they are the greatest and the smartest
not merely with their academic and professional
qualifications but also if they are rich, powerful
and good English speakers. Statements after
statements made by TMJ show that he does fall under
one or several of the named categories.
The lowly and
stupid people like me have been asking questions
where do the Sultans and Kings get their wealth from
? Where did they come from and what made them
claimed the land belonged to them ? From the great
great grand father ? from the British ? Even the
natives of the country did not have the ownership of
the land where they have been practicing the
shifting cultivations before the Malays and these
people who claimed to be Kings came in.
The simple thing
is the pen and the sword that laid down the claim.
The thoughtful Mao Tze Tung said that the power lies
in the barrel of the gun. The English says The Pen
is Mightier than the Sword. They put it into law.
The men with money buy the ownership with their
wealth taking over the rightful and the truthful
ownership of the nation's wealth.
money, power and titles tend to be braggarts and
boast as if the other listeners are stupid and
It was the Sultan
of Johore who commented that '...the Malays wants
independent when they can't even made a pin.." when
there was a march for independence. It was the
former Sultan of Johore who whacked his caddies to
death by the golf stick.
The truth is
always painful but it is the ultimate truth, no
amount of words of man made law could squash the
fake stuffs of divine truth. You make law to deprive
and to arrest and to persecute those who say out the
truth of the Kings.
There is always a
limit to everything in this world, even the sky. The
Johoreans might bow and praise their Kings to the
sky, the Kedahkians might hate and curse TMJ to the
despicable level. The show of disrespect are not
without reasons and are not coming from Kedah only.
You need to read some of the past remarks from the
public in the social media how the Kings fared.
People asked what made Kukup belongs to the King and
what Godly right has they over all the land . People
asked the effectiveness of Malaysian soccer under
TMJ. People talked about his involvement in the GE14
against PH. People talked about the right of the
King to kill another man. They were from all over
We learned about
the Kings of the world; their demise, their life and
their downfall. We come to one conclusion that God
gives and God can take.
While some kissed
the hands of the dignitaries, there are millions who
urinated at their pictures. So goes with the bad and
totalitarian leaders. And people of similar nature
and status. Nobody believes in the divine power of
rulers anymore, to fear them as if they were
Let me remind us
about the show of power when Tun M was about to be
elected as a Prime Minister. He was made to wait for
hours by the King. The public saw this as a pure
insult. They talked among themselves though nobody
made a tumult out of it. But only recently the
secret picture of the Russian wife of the King went
viral showing her braless chest. By itself the
respect and the dignity of the King dwindled. Many
think it is the comeuppance, the karma, the paying
back time. What was done to Tun M has been redeemed
at below the lowest price.
TMJ mst have been
proud of the Forest City. And he wouldn't care about
the plight of his own race and the people of his
state were swearing and cursing for being made to
suffer by the foreigners. Didn't he see the meaning
of GE14 at all ?
Lke Najib, TMJ
does not realize millions do not find him a good and
wise man. He should join politics and makes his
party win the whole country.
We wll wait to
see. Will he be humiliated ?
The era of a King
as a Caliph, the Shadow of God is over. He is there
by a mere tradition, the symbol of unity. The King
is the king of all, not merely of a particular race or political
party. He shows no favour to any specific political
group. That is his role. And most of all a King is
not to make enemy with the rakyat.
No King can do
what he likes as he wishes. He cannot commit murder,
takes people's wife and land and properties. If it
wrong for an ordinary man to commit a crime, it is
also wrong for anybody else to do the same. It goes
to a Prime Minister as well.
The show of
ultimate power of throwing people in the dungeon is
a sign of the end of the Kingships. People will
revolt in any way they can to oust the remains of
monarchy . And such instability can lead to civil
war and the lost of lives as what is happening in
It is not wise
for TMJ to spew unnecessary words anymore.
I am old and
ugly. But it does not people don't care about me
leading solitary life. They, not only playfully
asked me to look for one but they also tried to
introduce one to be my spouse. My heart closes
totally. I live peacefully alone since the death of
my wife. Those are the people who want a company, a
partner to share.
My wife was sick
for more than ten years and seriously bed ridden for
about 60 months. I took her out for a company and a
companion that narrated a lot of her memories. 2015
is considered very recent. She was not as beautiful
as some ladies I came into contact with. But till
her death we departed. The pious says that her soul
is always asking me to marry again.
spinsters prefer to stay that way because they have
been jilted before. The fear of being jilted by
women is deep in my heart especially when women are
beautiful and popular. What if I am kicked and
ignored now or later ?
Let me tell
you of a true story about a friend who married a
beautiful wife. The wife was a temperamental lady.
Then he went away from home. She put it in
newspapers. There was no response. Years later she
found another man and married man. She bore children
with the first husband, the second and later the
third as the second one passed away. AS for the
first husband, my friend, the fate is not known till
I still met her
once in a blue moon but I did not utter anything on
her private life.
I also saw a
flirting housewife, known by her own daughters. One
of the daughters bore a son out of wedlock despite
lots of tales of the baby boy. I blamed her for what
had happen to the family.
A woman can
promise you anything today and changes her mind the next
morning. She can make love to you profusely and
pretend that she has never met you before.
But many women
are always looking for choices. They want the best.
I know I am the last and the worst. I could trace
them by their words they uttered but they always
forget the words spewed.
A friend told
me not expect a perfect woman. There must always a
give and take, and accompanied by compromises.
Even that does
not enter my mind. I first would go for a woman who promises
me of her love and commitment.
CAN'T STAND CIGARETTES
Two hours in a car that smells smokes of cigarette
will make me sick for two weeks. I am not condemning
the smokers but am blaming myself for having a weak
body. I would suffer from coughing and even fever.
sleepless nights for a long number of days. I can'
help but to have minimum social interactions with
friends who are heavy smokers.
Most smokers do not respect other people, letting
the smokes to travel into other people's lungs. They
just don't bother about the freedom of non-smokers
to breath the fresh air. If they want to die, go
ahead by all mean.
remember of an instant a non-smoking bus driver
stopped the bus because he smelt someone was smoking
secretly, and shouted and threatened to kick the
smoker out of the bus. He stopped the bus for about
15 minutes and resumed the journey later. That was
enough for the warning. In Korea a smoker in a hotel
would be fined severely without pity nor
forgiveness. The Koreans said that they learned from
There are smoking places at where smoking is
illegal. Hotels, restaurants and other public places
must also provide a special room for these addicts.
It was interesting to hear about a few individuals
wanted to sue the government on smoking ban. And it
was more hilarious to hear that the give the leeway.
What sort of specimens do we have in our country ?
No wonder we are moving backwards each day
regardless of the type of government we inherit.
They say cigarette creates job. It is a paradise for
a tobacco planter. And all sort of arguments to
defend drugs and cigars. It is a sad thing to happen
to human being. We allow the inconsiderate and the
filthy people to kill the innocents.
WHAT A RELIEF
All the vital commitments have been settled; the
payment to the gate painter, the road tax for two
cars and the land rate for two houses. Though
I don't have any money left, I feel very relief. I
don't owe anyone any money. Never mind about being
poor and shabby looking old man. I don't mind having
any woman rejects me for my lowly condition as long
as I live with a peaceful mind.
Out of curiosity I rushed to the ASB office. It was
opened. There were only a few people because ASB's
transaction is halted today owing to the new year
holiday in Selangor. But I could find out the amount
in my account. It rounded up my last balance.
It would have been wiser for me to be prudent in my
spending for this month until January, the 20th, the
day when I will receive my next pension. Prudent
spending does not mean I must starve myself.
know of people who borrows but behind hand, trying
not to pay as they can do it. They borrowed a few
hundred thousands from bank and never paid. They
borrowed from Ah Long till the later splashed paints
on their homes. I lent a few thousand to this kind
of man but with still a hope that he would the loan
in a few years time. I noticed that they lead a
dreaded lives, fearing many things, of their kids
being kidnapped, of themselves being harmed. They
are running away from the people they borrow.
As I have repeatedly said that God will not bless
them, and without Barakah they will never be happy
and satisfied until their old age. As the Hindus say
Karma will work for them.
To clear myself from the burden of borrowing, I
don't borrow. I pay cash for the vehicles or any
household equipments. If I don't have money, I won't
buy them. Motorcycles are cheaper than cars.
Bicycles are cheaper than motorcycles.
It takes discipline and sacrifice to have a mind
free of unnecessary fear and worry.
AUTEL EVO OVER MAVIC PRO
started the hoby with Mavic Pro. My frustration
began when all my three batteries went swollen. The
vendors told me to throw them away and get the new
ones. They are not cheap. Before this I found all
the China's products I bought online were not
reliable, sub-standard and fake. My distrust on
products from China began to heightened.
was looking for new drones from the West either
Germany or USA.
Coincidently, in November, while trying to capture
my friend's house, Mavic Pro came to sudden stop at
about 70 feet and dropped. It broke into pieces. I
told the seller about the incidence because the
warranty has not expired. The drone was purchased in
January. But the shop refused to take any
even suspect a sabotage in the updated firmware
coding to cause malfunction at a random date. People
have been cheated by the Chinese before. Even the
Malaysian Chinese are having similar sentiment over
On browsing the webpage I came across Autel Evo by
chance and wrote to the US company making inquiry
about their agent in Malaysia. The company gave a
long reply on various issues regarding their plan in
this region. I request a friend of mine to make an
order of the aircraft as I do not have any credit
card. Within three days the order arrive from
There was nobody who could guide me on the drone. So
I took my time to study and to handle it. I slowly
learn to push in and pull out parts, SD-card, the
Gimbal cover, and the propellers. I repeated the
procedures several times. I studied the RC and how
to connect to the cables. Also repeated it several
times. Only days later I tried the electrical parts,
switching on the battery attached to the drone and
the RC switch. It took me some guts to push the two
command sticks down, to start the propellers.
dared not push the lift off button yet. I had to
find a wide area to do it for fear autel might not
move vertically up but would fly 45%upward-side
direction as I had experienced with my Mavic before.
I took it to the free and wide space area near the
museum and tested the lift off. It worked fine. Then
I took it home. There was no flying nor the
recording of scene.
In the meantime I was studying the camera setting,
about the aperture, the white balance, the shutter
speed and everything else. I did not whether to put
to the manual or an auto mode. And when I put to a
Manual and tried to select a parameter like the ISO
of 100, it would not lock. It slide up and down in
erratic manner. I wrote to the support department. I
did not understand the explanation. But I was
determine to explorer very patiently every aspect of
Even before I understood how to mange the ISO, white
balance and the shutter I decided to fly and test
the return home property. Will the drone return home
to the place where it takes off or not. This is very
essential procedure because as we fly the aircraft
higher and farther we won't be able to see the drone
anymore. Usually at the point of panic, we will be
pressing the home button. The system has to work or
else you will be losing your drone. Therefore the
test must be done.
took for the test without bothering to the camera. I
later learned that the easiest is to put to the Auto
mode. And I made changes to the other properties
using the RC controller, not through the cell-phone.
And only two days ago I discovered the Android
OIppo7 would not lock my choice of an item
parameter. The iPhone 6 does not have any such
The above pictures were all on the experimental
basis especially on the changing of colours. They
were from video clips.
Maneuvering wise autel evo is much better than Mavic
Pro. I tested the forward and backward obstacle
avoidance. They worked perfectly find.
Though I later learned that even Autel-Evo is
Chinese that opened up a business in the United
States, my confidence is never fade. They have to
meet the American standard and quality. I know I do
not buy a fake clone from an Asian market, or from a
vendor in Malaysia who at any event will try their
best to squeeze as much as they can from you.
PH AFTER TUN DR. MAHATHIR
It has been a long time that I did not make any
prediction on matters that might affect all of us
whether we will have the bright and a clear day or a
dark and cloudy days. Seeing the blunders and
turbulence in PH as the momentum of power struggle
is taking place I can't help but to express my sight
of the future political haphazard.
If Tun were to think on the same line as me, I would
say that giving up a Premiership is not a big deal.
At this age I have no desire for power anymore.
After the winning Tun has done what he always wanted
to do after the second coming back; to take Anwar
out of incarceration, to destroy the corrupt regime
and Najib and Rosmah duo. He wanted to strengthen to
BERSATU party. Those he did and he is ever
willing to step down.
When Tun Dr Mahathir disappeared from the limelight,
Anwar will take over. The forever dissatisfied lots
will start to see Anwar's Empire is on the rise. He
has a wife and a daughter with him. He has Rafizi as
his big general. He will sack people in the Cabinet
and a few Ministers purported to fulfil the wishes
of the people. PH will crack. The coalition members
will realize that PH will not dominate in the GE15
Tun never hid the fact that PKR and DAP regarded him
as enemies. At least DAP gave Tun some leeway but
not Rafizi and Anwar who even planned to oust the
current Prime Minister. PKR has always been thinking
that the party is the choice of the people that made
PH won the last election.
Anwar wants to show he is the hero of the Malays.
Tun on the other hand blame the Malays for the
failure of economic success for the race is the
laziest people who want free stuffs without putting
much efforts into them. I see the Malays as lazy,
stupid, short sighted and are too pampered. The
Malays even in BERSATU still are craving for post
and money from the government. Who among them are
willing to work free for the sake of nation building
? The Chinese is building up their communities using
their own efforts and financial sacrifices.
2020 will be a year of political and racial
turbulence under PKR Anwar Ibrahim. Please mark my
words. This is not a prophesy but a prediction, base
on the observable human behaviours. I see Rafizi is
the main key destroyer of PH party. This time PKR
has no more issue to fight and campaign but has only
to defend itself on it's actions in managing the PH
and the government.
It is highly probable that by 2021 PH will
disintegrate and by the next GE15 PH will remain as
Hi everybody !!!
There is nothing to celebrate as we stepping into a
new Gregorian year. I am getting older and weaker
and getting rotten and useless. People don't
celebrate when they are about to die or to hang
2019 is in fact the year of a new drone for me, a
trusted imported bird from USA, where I could enjoy
to fly and dream of spectacular beauty of nature to
capture, and imprisoned them in the brainless minute
gadget called storage. Everyday, as I move about I
see the environments as the frames of scenes. Are
they beautiful enough to be captured ?
You don't fly a drone merely to press the buttons
and to play with joysticks and love to see it ascend
and descend but on many occasion there are feelings
within yourselves to conquer something. There
were people flying their drones high up above the
cloud and trying to stretch the distance which they
knew there were great risks involved. Their drones
could fly away, fell into the sea and the battery
went dead before they could cry "God..." for help.
flew to the city centre from my home, about 4
miles away, and my heart beat so fast when the
battery almost came to an end. I flew over a hill
that I thought I could never have done. It was the
quest to conquer, to see the unknown and to take a
have a new colour for my gate. It was just completed
today 31st December 2018. I didn't plan it for the
new year at all. It just came suddenly over me. It
was expensive for the small structure but I had it
done. The colour choice was made by a friend living
one hour away from home. It is an event for the new
don't want to forecast whatever else will happen in
the coming future. There are always a lot of
uncertainties that can be good or bad, happy or sad.
I don't even dare to predict. I remember Dorros Day
singing "WHAT WILL BE WILL BE".
Like everybody else let us hope for the best in year